Lake Drive Literally 12:56 PM

Another storm. This one is bringing tons of rain, sleet. The sewers are backed up along Lake Drive and the road is flooded the entire block in front of the apartment building. There is a heavy loader out there moving snow and ice to clear the sewers. I've been watching the action from my window. I don't feel like venturing out today. I've baked some cookies, been watching an ANTM marathon on MTV and loading music on the Zune. It's a good day to lounge about.

The Lion Roars 6:27 PM

I just returned from seeing The Lion King. Very impressive. I completely enjoyed the show, it was done very well. I'm glad I got tickets. I had a really good time with Erin, we went to lunch prior to the show, then were entertained. The imagery, creativity, music, and story were breathtaking. The crowd went wild after the show ended. It makes me want to see more Disney Broadway productions. I stopped on the way home and filled the tank up with gas and bought some essentials and now I can settle in for the evening and tomorrow since the next winter storm will be pushing through with rain, freezing rain, sleet, and snow. I won't be going anywhere.

Quiet 6:34 PM

Tonight I am having a nice peaceful evening even though I am excited. Tomorrow I am going with Erin to see the Broadway production of The Lion King. I'm silently roaring. I bought tickets way back in September. It's been a long long wait for me but I am finally going! I received email notification of Light the Night registration will be taking place in March. Team MattAtomic will be an active participant for the event in September. I hope you all will join me in the walk for Leukemia and Lymphoma again. I will post details as they become available. I'm off to the couch to silently roar for the evening.

Gratitude 3:35 PM

I was speaking with a friend today whose Father has cancer and is terminal and it got me thinking about what I danced with, how lucky I am to be where I'm at, and how grateful I am for the people in my life who give to me so much whether they realize it or not. I can live and breathe and feel and the world is colorful and the future is wide open for me. Having cancer hasn't defined me, but defined life and all that it holds and I know what and who is important to me.

4WD 7:20 PM

Well the snow came as predicted. The drive to work wasn't too bad, but as the day progressed the roads got worse. I watched a car spin out and end up on top of a snow bank in the industrial park where I work. Good thing I have 4 wheel drive on the Jeep. The ride home took twice as long as normal, but I didn't have any problems. By the mailbox in the lobby of the apartment building was a package from the Disney Cruise Line, but it wasn't addressed to me. My neighbor is going. I'm going to have to talk to him. The package brought back some good memories. Now if only it would stop snowing.

Either Cold or Snow 7:07 PM

Today it is cold. Tomorrow it is Snow. This winter is proving to be one of the junkiest ones I can remember. I like the diversions I have along the way to distract and occupy me until the weather changes. I stopped by Mom and Dad after work for dinner. Tonight reading and TV don't interest me. I have other things on my mind and it doesn't involve the cold or the snow.

Good Weekend 1:37 PM

I'm home. I had a very good time up in the Dells. Lots of food, drink, and conversation, plenty of rest and relaxation. The water park was fun, despite the fact they pulled an unconcious man from the wave pool and a woman fell and hurt her leg. The casino kept me entertained, my money played both nights and I walked away with a small profit. Now I need a nap from the trip back. At one point just east of Johnson Creek, there was a mile stretch where the wind, blowing snow and ice had cars in the ditch and all over the road. Made it through with no problem and glad to curl up on the couch and rest for the remainder of the day.

Winter Camp In 11:42 AM

Heading up to the Dells for the annual Winter Camp In at the Wilderness on the Lakes. After all the snow, and a busy work week, I'm looking forward to some relaxation. Enjoy the weekend, I'm enjoying mine.

Snow pt 2 6:05 PM

The snow definitely piled up today. For a while this morning it looked like the storm was not as intense as predicted, but things changed around noon. White out conditions along the lake. I stayed home from work, did laundry, cleaned, read, watched TV. I'm glad I didn't have to go out in the storm. It's still raging outside, it should slow down in the next hour or two. I'll curl up on the couch and watch it from the windows again tonight.

Snow 6:40 PM

The storm is moving in, the snow is flying. Conditions are perfect for over a foot of snow before it moves out. I am going to settle on the couch and watch it from the window. Complaining about it isn't going to change the forecast, so I'll make the best of it, have food and drink and TV to keep me occupied. Feeling pretty good this cold wintery evening.

W-9s 7:56 PM

I finally received the tax forms from my insurance for the long-term disability payment I got in January 2007. That means I can file my taxes. I hope to get a return this year, last year I had to pay. Any money will go into my travel fund. I have done laundry and dishes, now going to lounge on the couch and watch TV. Looks like there's another storm heading this way, the snow keeps piling up and winter continues.

Winding Down 4:31 PM

Sunday late afternoon. Going to take a nap, had dinner by my parents with Tim and Julia, and Michael. Spent the night out by Kim's, we went out for dinner and rented some movies. Stayed up late talking. I came home this morning, did some reading, the over by Mom and Dad. Superbowl is on tonight, so I just might watch to catch the commercials, we'll see. I had to kill a wasp in my apartment this morning, not sure where it came from, but I don't like the fact that it was inside. Tomorrow it's back to the routine.

Running around 1:02 PM

Been keeping myself busy lately. Was out the door early this morning, grocery shopping. I'm loading music on the Zune, creating playlists. Met up with Doug for a quick lunch and will be heading out to Kim's house for the night. I cringe every time there's snow in the forecast, but I'll get through it, it is February already. Tomorrow I plan on doing some laundry and some reading, there's another ANTM marathon on that I will probably watch also.

The Office Visit 6:49 PM

I got to the Oncologist's office with minutes to spare and they called me back for quick blood tests right away. Then I took a seat in the waiting room and did the crossword puzzle from the journal. The nurse came to get me then and take me back to the examining room. All my stats were normal. The Doctor came in, told me I had clean scans and my blood counts were good, including the platelets. He informed me I was in remission and I didn't have to come back for three months. Three whole months of no blood work, tests, exams. He said I was an ideal patient and a pleasure to treat and care for. He also raved about my Dad, which I had to agree with wholeheartedly. All that was running through my mind was three whole months of no blood work, tests, exams! It was a good day at the doctor's office.

The Phone Call 6:31 PM

The oncologist called to give me the news over the phone, clear scans. He didn't want me to have to wait until my appointment on Thursday to hear the news. I had been lounging on the couch and not expecting any calls. What good news to get on a blustery winter day. News I have been waiting to hear. Seeing how I've been feeling, it's not surprising. I like getting phone calls like that.

Sightseeing 6:36 PM

Today I saw myself in Paris, London, Rome. Places I never thought of going. I want to see the world around me. I received my Passport in the mail. Life is a journey, and I will travel. I will see the places I dream of. I feel the adrenaline, the energy, the experience. One piece of mail can bring so much into your life. I am on a journey, one of self awareness and discovery, which began with a traumatic experience, which I now come to realize is a transformation point in my life, which I have come to embrace. My own mantra "I Am".

It's the Sun 8:27 AM

Woke up this morning to the sun shining. What an awesome feeling! Been keeping myself busy, got out to Starbucks and the bookstore, running the Jeep over the 100,000 mark. Reading, watching TV, and reorganizing the apartment. I should have it done sometime this week, as long as I keep up with it. I'm going to get out today to get some essential household products and maybe something fun, we'll see. I just want to get out because the sun is shining and the temperature is supposed to be above freezing!

Glowing 10:14 AM

I just got home from the scans. Radioactive for a few hours. The scans went fine, I know the routine. I will have the results on the 31st of this month. As I stated previously, I'm feeling great. Usually the nuclear medicines hit my empty stomach about now and I feel blah for a couple of hours, nothing yet. I did take a granola bar and some cereal with me to snack on afterwards. The Zune works wonderful in the Jeep, glad I purchased the FM adapter. I plan on doing some laundry and reading today. Relaxing.

Music in My Life 7:52 PM

I have had an uneventful couple of days, the best part was the arrival of my Zune, the new mp3 player I purchased. I am in the process of loading music on it now. I grew tired of the radio, so I now can take the music I know and love with me wherever I go. Music has been a big influence in my life, so I'm surprised it took me this long to get one. Tonight one of my favorite movies is on cable, so I am watching "Fried Green Tomatos", eating chicken strips, and playing music. I have scans in the morning, so tonight I am doing things I enjoy to relax. I have to fast in about twenty minutes in preparation, nothing but water for me. Water and music and movies.

One Month of Winter 5:32 PM

It's been a long, snowy, cold winter so far. I can't imagine what the next couple of months are going to be like. Every day it stays light a bit longer and all in good time it'll be Spring. It's a slow time for me, I have in the routine of going to work, coming home during the week and trying to socialize on the weekends, in-betweeen snowstorms and cold spells.

Local Theater 5:31 PM

It's still too cold out. It's supposed to warm up some, but snow, which is just as treacherous. I wrestled with the Jeep again, but got it running. I went to the Racine Theater Guild with Dad today to see "You Cant Take it With You". It was all right, interesting to see a local theater production. Had dinner with Mom and Dad afterwards. Now I'm home, ready to watch TV and read, staying warm under my blankets.

I'll Have a Mocha to Go 3:05 PM

It really is cold out. I was up early and decided I had to start the Jeep. About 8:45 I went outside. The engine turned over and rattled, groaned, but caught and ran. I went out to Border's in Greenfield, got a book, a puzzle book and a magazine before heading back home. On the way, I thought about getting some coffee, so I jumped on the freeway and over to the local coffeehouse to read. There had to be about twenty women in there all set for an aerobics class (little did I know there is a gym in the same complex). It was crowded and noisy, so the mocha was coming home with me. I talked with Char this afternoon for a while, she can get me in a laughing mood easily. I shaved, showered, napped, and am all set for the evening. I just haven't any plans as yet. I just might end up on the couch, we'll see. I do want to get out and start the Jeep and run it for a while tonight.

Taken by Surprise 5:10 PM

The weekend is going to be frigid. As much as I'd rather be in a warm and sunny place, I am willing to head out into the cold to have dinner and catch a movie tonight. So much for hibernating. I want to get to the bookstore tomorrow, there's a new book I want to pick up and read. I originally planned on staying in this weekend, but, I guess I won't be. Stay warm.

It's in the Blood 3:37 PM

The results of my blood work show that my red cells and white cells are in the normal range and my platelet count is below normal but sustaining. That in itself is great news, I'm not anemic, and my body is producing cells. I will have them checked again in two weeks, prior to my Oncologist appointment. As I have been stating lately, I feel good, and have no issues to speak of. Tomorrow is Packer Day at work, I can wear jeans and support the team. Days like that are good, relaxing and I seem productive. It should close out the work week in good fashion.

The Jeep 5:21 PM

I got the Jeep tonight! It's all fixed and looking good. I am thrilled to have it back. I feel like myself again. I didn't care for the rental, felt conspicuous driving it. Now I can tool around town in Matt style. I'm too lazy tonight to take pictures, but tomorrow I will snap a few. Tomorrow, I have to go get some blood work done for the Hematologist. Hoping all my levels are doing okay. I've been feeling fine and don't anticipate any problems. Keeping my fingers crossed.

Start of the Week 6:17 PM

Work was slow going, not much to do. Supposedly there's a project coming that should keep me busy. I cooked tonight, actually used the stove instead of the microwave. Going to bake some cookies, like having a warm kitchen. The Jeep is still in the shop, it should be finished tomorrow. It'll be nice to have the Jeep back.

Wrapped in a Blanket 10:44 AM

I just cannot get warm today. Had a busy day yesterday, went to Culver's for lunch, then Sam's club for essentials. Got home, unloaded, then headed out the door to Potawotomi to meet Jody for dinner and the chance at winning big bucks. Notice I said chance. I am just going to stay on the couch today, wrapped in my blanket, reading and watching disaster movies on TV, trying to stay warm. It's not even that cold out.

All in a Day 7:46 AM

Up too early. I would like to have slept in. Had an interesting day yesterday. I went to court on the too fast for conditions citation from the accident. There were lots of underage drinking, owi/dui, and traffic violations. My name was called, the judge read the citation, asked me if I had questions, then kept the fine and reduced the points. I then paid the ticket and left. Some cleaning and vacuuming later, I went out for pizza and a movie with Doug. We went to the IPic theater at Bayshore. Very nice, comfortable big seats. I would definitely go there again. Today is wide open, I'm sure I'll find something to keep me entertained.

As the Snow Flies 8:24 PM

Looking out the window, I daydream about Florida, Disney, warm weather, Summer. I often wonder what am I doing in Wisconsin, I don't like Winter. The answer is my family and friends. Especially on nights like tonight when the snow is falling, I dream. Then I talk to someone, make plans for the weekend, and I am grounded and content, knowing winter shall pass and I'll enjoy being in Wisconsin.

Climbing the Mountain 6:16 PM

I finally faced the mounds of laundry piling up. Started once I got home, the last load is in the washer, and one in the dryer as I write. I kept putting it off, for some reason, I'd rather be channel surfing, doing a puzzle, or reading. I'm glad I decided to deal with the wash. I'm feeling really good. Not experiencing any aches or pains or feeling worn out. The week is going by pretty fast, hard to believe it's Wednesday night. Not liking the snow predicted for tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be home before it starts. I'm excited because I read today that The Mole is going to be on ABC again. It is one of my favorite reality shows. American Idol is going to start and another season of Survivor begins soon, so I'll have plenty of shows to watch.

The Rental Car 5:46 PM

This is the rental car. Not what I expected at all. It handles pretty good and it'll get me through the week. The Jeep is in the shop, estimated time of completion is January 15th. I'm going to have to put the PT Cruiser through it's paces. The weather is definitely been wierd today. Severe thunderstorms and tornados pushing through the area, along with nice temperatures in the 50's. Of course winter returns in the next couple of days.

Out in the Fog 2:50 PM

Met up with Heather and her kids George and Ellie at Target for some shopping then over to Panera for a late lunch. I can't believe just how foggy it is outside. Some blocks were blanketed and others clear. It makes for interesting driving. It was good to see them and spend time with them. George got a treasure chest and Ellie some Barbie toys. I spent too much money yesterday so I didn't get anything even though I could have gotten plenty. I'm home now, going to read and watch the Futurama marathon on TV. Tomorrow the Jeep goes into the shop and it's another week of work. I had a great weekend.

Non-Stop 8:33 PM

I've been going since this morning, one thing after another. Got my haircut, went to Mayfair, out to dinner, and going to hang out with Doug tonight. Yesterday I was wondering what I would do to fill up my day, and I found plenty to keep me busy. Tomorrow Heather, who's in town from St. Louis, and I are going to meet at the coffee shop and catch up with each other. It's a good diversion from my normal lounge about weekends.

Something to Do 8:01 PM

The weekend is here and I have plenty to keep me busy, yet I feel I need something to do. The laundry is piling up, I could clean and organize, the book I started is getting good and there's still the ANTM marathon going. Instead I think I'm going to get out this weekend and run around. I went out for dinner tonight at Carleton Grange for a good fish fry and now I'm going to wind down on the couch and think about all I want to do this weekend. I'm sure I'll find something.

Start your Engines 5:12 PM

The day began roughly. When I went out to the Jeep this morning, it wouldn't start. The engine turned over but would not catch. As I tried, the battery waned. A quick phone call and Dad was over to get me to work on time. Thanks Dad! I made arrangements for a rental car while the Jeep is getting repaired. It should be interesting to drive a different vehicle for a week or so. Of course Dad got the Jeep running and took it over to his house and charged the battery. He picked me up after work in the Jeep and I filled the tank with gas and got us both home. I got some running to do tonight, I'm sure I won't encounter any problems.

In the Middle 7:27 PM

The passing holidays have really confused my days. It felt like the beginning of the week instead of being Wednesday. It's going to take me a few days to readjust. I picked up copies of the cruise pictures finally and am in the process of putting together an album. It's kind of fun reliving the moments as I go through the pictures. I've been feeling really good, have gotten through the angst of additional doctor visits. The scans have been scheduled for the 25th of this month. Still watching the ANTM marathon and going to start reading a new book.

Good as New 8:41 PM

The mob at Bradford Beach

Steve coming out of the Lake

People running back from diving in the water

The first day of 2008 has been good. I celebrated with Kim and the Klugiewicz family to ring in the new year. Got home by 1:00am and slept in (7:45am if you can call that sleeping in!). I got up, made some coffee, got ready and headed out to Bradford Beach for the annual Polar Bear gathering. While it was cold, it was fun to watch all the crazy people. Got to watch part of the ANTM marathon on cable, then hung out with Doug for the evening. It was a good way to start off the year.

It's New Year's Eve. I'm going to go out and celebrate all the good. Have a safe and happy turn of the clock.

It's getting to be year end and what a year it's been for me. The recollection of things I've experienced throughout the year contain both highs and lows. Looking back, it's hard to believe some of the rough things I've gone through and easy to remember the good. The highlights include finishing chemotherapy and radiation treatments; the Disney trip in February and getting to open the Magic Kingdom; the Light the Night walk for Leukemia and Lymphoma in September; the Disney Cruises November/December; and my family and friends who color my days and nights. Those were some of the prominent moments, but smaller meaningful moments include afternoon scrabble games with Mom and Dad; Friday night dinners; going for coffee; reading a book; sharing a laugh. 2007.

I am perturbed. The oncologist wants me to have scans done in four weeks and is consulting the hematologist because my counts are low and the lymphs abnormal despite no trace of lymphoma in my system. I don't know what to do, feel great, not experiencing any problems, and just want to move on from this. I know I have to do follow ups and keep on top of things, but this is just dragging on and on.

Work wasn't too bad to get through, good thing I have work to do. I behaved and didn't buy anything online. I am attempting to get the social security check debacle resolved, looks like I'm going to have to waste time at the local office. They want me to repay for checks I returned since I wasn't eligible. It is a nightmare, I thought I had things taken care of. Tomorrow is my oncology appointment, blood check and hopefully the last one for a number of months. I'm afraid to get my hopes up though.

Merry Christmas. I am home after an adventurous journey to Battle Creek for the holidays. The train was late by almost two hours through Indiana because of a freight train derailment. I felt like I was on the train for days. Once I got to Patrick and Toni's, I could relax and enjoy my visit. There was plenty of food, games, and movies to entertain us. I got to hang out at some of Christopher's coffee houses in Battle Creek and Kalamazoo. We celebrated on the eve, presents, lasagna, pizza. I am grateful for the time with Pat, Toni, Christopher, Mom and Dad. The time went fast. The ride home was uneventful, I got pictures of the derailed freight train as we passed on the way home. It was cleaned up pretty much than when I first went by on Saturday. Now I'm on the couch and lounging, it's back to work in the morning.

Before I begin the weekend, I figured I had better do a post. Since I'll be in Michigan, I won't be online until I return. Work was all right, the day dragged. Everyone seemed to be waiting for it to end. I'm set for travelling, got my bags packed, heading out early tomorrow morning on AmTrak. Merry Christmas!!! Let the festivities begin!!!

One week ago, I was on board the Wonder. Time sure does fly. Instead of doing laundry, I went and met Doug for dinner and some shopping. I had a better time doing that than sorting whites and darks. One of my favorite foods from Disney is the chicken strips, so in honor of the cruise, that's what I ordered. I now have all the pictures (over 500) to sort through, so I'll be posting them for weeks to come. It was food day at work and there was lots of it to eat, hot turkey, ham, treats. I stuffed myself. Now I am going to start packing for the trip to Battle Creek.

Not doing too much tonight, got a load of laundry in the dryer, been reading and thinking about what to eat for dinner. I had a good time at the party last night, spent most of the time socializing. The food was excellent. I didn't stay out too late, was home around 9:30pm. Here's another picture from the cruise, this one of Doug, Mickey, and I in front of the huge Christmas tree in the lobby(?) of the ship. I still get a smile on my face about the whole experience.

Here I am on the deck of the Wonder after spending the day at Castaway Cay in the Bahamas. This trip was one of the best vacations I have had. Every day was an adventure. I'm about to head out to the company Christmas partym which should be an adventure in itself. I got the go ahead from my insurance company and have scheduled the repairs on the Jeep for January 7th. Another adventure I guess.

It wasn't too bad getting up this morning and out the door to work. I expected to be dragging, but got a good nights sleep. Of course I wanted to be on the ship, but harsh reality kept me grounded. It took 45 minutes to get home because College Avenue was closed and the traffic back up was insane. I'm going to start unpacking so I can begin to pack for my trip to Battle Creek this weekend for Christmas. Tomorrow night is the company Christmas party downtown so I won't begin laundry until Wednesday.

The trip was incredible! I had one hell of a time. The Wonder is a great ship, the cruise one of the best vacations I have been on. Doug is a great friend and travelling with him is relaxing. When you travel with the right people, it makes all the difference. Met some really nice people at our dinner table, hung out on the beach with them, went to shows with them, I had a blast. I'll post pictures and have stories when I motivate. I'm off to the couch to vegetate.

I'm sitting here, waiting for Doug to pick me up and head out to the airport. Looking forward to a great time on the cruise. I won't be posting anything until I return, I'm sure I will have plenty to say then. I rescheduled my follow up with the Oncologist to December 27th, so I get two weeks without a doctor's appointment. I like that.

Got the Jeep in for an estimate tonight after work. Needs $2,000+ in repairs. Yikes. Waiting on the Insurance company now. I can get it in as soon as Thursday. Repairs should take about one week. I'll have to get a rental to get around. The weather is supposed to get nasty tomorrow and I've got an appointment at the Oncologist. If the roads are bad, I will reschedule. As the trip gets closer, I'm getting more excited. Last week contained some highs and lows, it'll be nice to just kick back, relax, and have an enjoyable time.

All my clothes are ironed and most are packed for the cruise. Thanks to Mom for pressing my dress pants for me. Four days and I sail away. I am really looking forward to the escape. Going to read and watch TV and just relax for the rest of the day. Celebrated Sarah's 11th birthday yesterday out by Kim's. It was great to see everyone. It was noisy, crowded, and a good time.

Right Passenger Side

Driver's Side

Here's the damage to the Jeep. Contacted my insurance company and am being referred to a local body shop. I drove around some today, not any problems except it's hard to get into the vehicle on the driver's side. I'll be glad when the Jeep is in the shop. I'll be glad to be on the cruise in a few days too!

Definitely not one of my better days, I smashed up the Jeep on my way home from work this evening. Grabbed a patch of ice, fishtailed, and lost control and hit a pole. The Jeep is damaged, I had to remove part of the front bumper in order to drive. I'm all right, didn't get hurt, just shook up.

I'm not liking the snow at all. Just finished ironing all my shirts and pants for the trip, will be packing over the weekend. Tomorrow I get my stitches out. I guess I really am on the way now. I planned on doing so many things once I got the okay, now I can't procrastinate! Unfortunately it's cold, wintery, so the outside activities like archery and bike riding will have to wait. I'll have to find some other way to get in shape. I'll worry about that after the cruise.

It's been 24 hours since the phone call and I'm still overwhelmed. The magnitude and resonance of those two words "Cancer Free" is outstanding. After everything I have been through since July 2006, to hear those words is wonderful. I have experienced every emotion possible. I can hardly contain myself. To all my family and friends, your love and support has got me to where I am today. I can not express my gratitude with words or actions, it runs that deep. Just know that I do appreciate and love you all. Cancer Free. WOW.

I am cancer free!!! Just got off the phone with the oncologist and the biopsy shows no presence of cancer in my lymphatic system. I am elated!!!

Been a quiet rest filled day for me. I was finally able to take a shower this afternoon, which felt great, after 48 hours of not getting the incision wet. I haven't had any pains, nor taken any medication for it. I apply antibiotic ointment given to me by the doctor every few hours as directed. I haven't worn anything with a collar all weekend, so it will be interesting to wear one to work in the morning. Just reading and watching TV and lounging. I like to lounge.

Didn't sleep very well through the night, I can only lay in one position otherwise my neck feels tight and I notice the incision. Pain hasn't been a problem, just worried about damaging the wound. I sleep in short stints. Another day or two and I should be back to my regular sleeping pattern. I'm going to run out to Target this morning before the storm, then I will hibernate.

My neck is definitely sore now. The surgery went fine. I arrived at the center as scheduled and filled out the paperwork, then began the long wait to be called. About an hour later they called me and took me back to the pre-op area to get ready. I put on a gown and was given several shots of anesthesia to the neck. Ten minutes later I was taken to the operating room. I layed on my back with my head turned to the left, exposing the right side of my neck. The doctor came in and it began. I didn't feel anything except some pressure and the sensation of my hair being pulled on the right side. Not sure how long it took, but it went quick enough and the doctor was done and I was sewn up. I got to see the lymph node they removed. It was interesting. I was taken to the post-op area, given instructions, and sent on my way. I got home around 12:30pm. I laid my head down and napped. I get the sutures removed next week Friday. I should have the results sometime next week also.

I wanted to sleep in this morning, but to no avail. I'm up and moving around. Going to read a little before I get ready and head over to the surgery center. My appointment is at 10:30am with arrival at 10:00am. There are no restrictions so I can have breakfast. I will post more later today about the procedure. Had a nice relaxing evening last night, went out for pizza, then watched a movie. I was home and asleep by 10:00pm. Today's number is 10!

It's been an uneventful day. It's nice to have days like this at times. I've just been reading and watching TV. One more day of work this week, then the biopsy. I plan on doing nothing but lounging all weekend. Life is good!

I received my documents today for the Disney Cruise!!! I can't believe I'm going to be going in two weeks!!! I already have my clothes picked out and some stuff packed for the trip. Work is keeping me busy, it's nice to walk in the doors and have something to do. I'm reading this good book, "The Book of Lost Things" by John Connolly. It's about a boy who loses his mother and the books she read begin to talk to him. I have settled down myself, not dwelling on the biopsy, it is what it is, and fretting over it doesn't change things. The biopsy should give me definite answers.

It's been a tough day for me. Hard to explain why, but it has. I've been dwelling on the biopsy and it has me agitated. The surgery itself, and the test results don't upset me. It's what I may be losing that has me off balance. I have been feeling so good, planned things to do, feel like I am finally getting my life back. I've been through so much, I just wanted to have time to enjoy all the good things in my life. I will face whatever comes my way, but I will lament should I have to stop what I have been doing.

Another day, another ANTM marathon on MTV. I met up with Julie earlier at Starbucks, had lunch at Beans and Barleys. I enjoyed getting together and just shooting the breeze, catching up with each other. I really don't like cold weather, so I plan on hibernating tomorrow. Plus I think there's another ANTM marathon showing.

I did venture to the stores today. Don't know what I was thinking. They were crowded, frantic, noisy. I didn't buy anything until I got to the bookstore. The atmosphere was much more subdued. Been watching the ANTM marathon on MTV, lasts until 11:00pm. Hopefully I will last that long. I'm baking some cookies to snack on too. Tomorrow is wide open, no plans, but I'll find something to do. Oh yeah, the biopsy is scheduled for next Friday, November 30th. I can't wait for that.

Happy Thanksgiving! I've had my bountiful meal, played some slots, and a game of scrabble. Now it's time to nap, because I can. Later I'm going to watch TV and read. Contemplating whether I should venture to the stores tomorrow, but will determine that in the morning. I am also thinking about getting the tree up from the storage area and start some decorating. I have the whole weekend to motivate myself.

After much thought throughout the evening, a few internal struggles, I am going to have the biopsy done to find out one way or the other. I don't like not knowing. I discussed with the ear, nose, and throat specialist the procedure and feel it is the appropriate course to take. Since the scans and blood work are inconclusive, the biopsy will answer the one remaining question. It will be done as out-patient surgery, take about 15 minutes, and a few stitches.

Once again I didn't get to hear the word I was hoping for. The same areas in my abdomen and chest showed up on the scans. The doctor wants to perform a lymph biopsy to determine what is going on. All my blood work came back normal and I have no symptoms of the cancer. I am disturbed by the news and discouraged, especially since I feel so good. I am not sure what I am going to do, I need to think about things and make an educated decision. I don't want to go through any unnecessary procedures or treatments. I just wanted to hear one simple word.

The day went fast, I was surprised by that. The weather is deceiving, damp yet warm, still overcast. Tomorrow I find out the results of the scans. I'm eager, nervous. Despite the fact that I'm feeling great and have had no issues, there's still doubt. Not enough though to alter my mood or well-being. I had dinner with Mom, Dad, and Michael tonight. It's always nice to sit around the dinner table and catch up with each other.

Didn't go bumming last night because it was cold and rainy. Going to go today instead. There's some things I want to get, so I'm going to do some running today. Still feeling great so I'm anticipating a good report from the oncologist on Tuesday.

What a gray dreary day it's been. I was out the door early, helped Char with the liquidation sale at her store. She has to be out of the space by the end of the month. Everything is $1.00 no matter what and there were pushy people who wanted to barter. Michelle stopped in with Kaiyah (whom I named by the way). She's so adorable. I held her, fed her, and she laughed and giggled and beeped. Came home and napped, going to go bumming later with Doug. Now I'm off to lounge on the couch for a while.

It's finally the weekend. I want to hibernate, wrapped in a blanket. I'm sure I'll have moments to do other things like grocery shop and laundry, but tonight I don't plan on doing anything.

I made it through the scans. Actually fell asleep briefly while moving through the machine during the Pet scan. The radioactive material upset my stomach and I had gastro-intestinal issues all afternoon. The effects are wearing off finally. My friend Doug and I are going on the Disney Wonder in December, got a deal we couldn't pass up. Looking forward to the trip. We get to hang out with Mickey on Castaway Cay.

All my levels are good, counts normal. Tomorrow I have the scans, so the fasting begins about 8:30pm tonight for 12 hours. Only water for me until after the test. Have been snacking all night in preparation. Going to watch ANTM and Project Runway tonight, two of my favorite shows.

Here I am playing onboard the ship, Disney Wonder. It was definitely a wonder. I had a great time. Going to be a busy week for me now, have the Pet and CT scans on Thursday morning and the doctor's appointment the following Tuesday. With all the excitement I've had this past weekend, my energy level is up and I'm feeling better than ever. Put out good thoughts to the cosmos for clear scans, that is what I want most of all.

I am back. The trip was incredible. I completely enjoyed the cruise. The Disney Wonder is awesome. The weather was beautiful, there was so much to do onboard the ship. I would go again. My suitcase is still packed, I really should start to unpack it. The whole experience was relaxing and restful. I had a great time. I want to go back!

I'm all set for my journey. Suitcase packed, got my puzzle book and my reading book, and snacks. Completely excited about the trip. Might get to Downtown Disney and maybe even one of the parks while I'm in Orlando. Next week I will have the Pet and CT scans done and a follow up with the oncologist after that. Things have been going well, I've been feeling great. I will not have any posts until I return late on Sunday the 11th. Everyone have a nice week.

It was a busy day at work, trying to clear my desk before I leave for Orlando on Wednesday. I remembered I can eat green leafy vegetables again, so I had to have a Big Mac at lunch. For those who don't know, Mondays are all about the Big Mac. It was decadent; delicious. I have most of my clothes picked out for the trip, tomorrow I will actually pack though.

I slept through the time change and slept until 9:00am. A good ten hours of sleep. I decided to do some laundry and ended up watching VH1-Classic channel all morning. My newest guilty pleasure is "We are the 80's." Nothing but music videos from the 1980s. I can not tell you how much I loved watching them. I'm going to do laundry now. It's been a nice relaxing weekend.

It's Saturday. I slept in, lounged about, showered, got dressed, then headed out for a couple of hours. I got my haircut, then went with Kim to Starbucks for coffee and conversation. Stopped at Noodles for some food then came home. Just a nice relaxing day.

One small step in the right direction. One large step towards getting better. I do not have to take Coumadin any longer. After nine months, the doctor has finally determined enough time has passed, no new clots have been detected, and no complications have occurred. The only thing that remains now is the one word I want to hear to complete my recovery. Remission. I will have scans done in the next few weeks. Hopefully there will be no questionable areas and the scans will be clean. This has been one long process for me. I have been feeling great, so optimism and good thoughts abound.

Wow this year has gone by too fast. I can not believe it is November already. I am taking a break tonight, I didn't bring any work home. I ran downtown after work and got certified copies of my birth certificate so I can go on the cruise and apply for a passport. I want to go to Disneyland Paris in the future. Tonight though, it's all about watching TV and lounging.

The days are flying by. Keeping busy with work, every night I bring home a stack of invoices to data enter. I stopped at the hospital on my way home tonight to get my INR checked, hopefully it will have come down some. I booked a trip on the Disney Cruise ship Wonder for next week Wednesday. I am excited. I need to get downtown to get a certified birth certificate and out by Kim to get a haircut before then. A week from today, I'll be in Orlando. For now, I'm typing away at the computer.

I am done with the stack of invoices I brought home. Tomorrow, I'll grab another stack. At least it's casual day and I can wear jeans to work. It seems I am more productive when I'm working in jeans. Today was trick or treat here in Cudahy and I didn't see very many kids out on the street. No one comes to the apartment building so the peanut butter cups are all mine. I did run out, stopped at Culver's and Border's. The new Peter Pan book "Peter and the Secret of Rundoon" is out, so I had to get a copy. Not too much going on, going to lounge and read tonight.

I've been up since 7:00am, working away at my latest project. Making good time, I'm about half-way done with what I wanted to do today. That'll give me time to do some other things this weekend besides work. Went out to dinner last night, Riviera Maya on KK in Bay View, good mexican food. Then stopped for ice cream. Came home and fell asleep before 10:00pm. I am a wild one.

The blood thinners are working too good, my INR is at 8.1 today. I am going to stop taking them for two days (doctor's orders). Then I will be taking 5mg a day. No shaving for me for a while. Taking a break from data entry and watching Survivor, then back to work for another hour. I will be busy all weekend.

I brought work home with me tonight. Have another large project to get done. This one will keep me busy for quite a while. Ran to Target for some essentials like tooth paste, shaving cream, animal crackers, and Meet the Robinsons DVD. At some point this week I'll find the time to watch the movie. The clerk at the store told me she loved it and has seen it several times. I like hearing good movie reviews. Going to get back to data entry shortly, after I eat. I will take a break to watch America's Next Top Model though. (still hooked on ANTM.)

It's raining out and the temperature is falling. It seems so dreary compared to the weekend. I started going through all the invoices I pulled in Orlando last week. It's going to keep me busy at work for quite awhile. They seem to be finished working on the roof and I was able to park in the lot again. It's so much nicer than parking on the street. Still feeling good, nothing troubling to mention. I will have scans done the first week in November. Until then, I'll just be rambling about things I do.

What an incredible weekend for late October. The weather reminded me of Florida! While I was walking through the zoo today, it seemed just like walking down main street at the Magic Kingdom. Almost. Nothing compares to Disney. I was there for about 6 hours on Monday, got to see the Haunted Mansion and Pirates of the Caribbean, the street parades, ride the Monorail several times, and shop! Lots of fun. The weather turns back to seasonal tomorrow, and I'm back to the routine. Sigh.

I wanted to sleep in this morning, but the repairmen got here early to work on the roof. I'm still parking on the street because of their equipment and a dunpster are in the parking lot. They were supposed to be done by now, but rain has delayed their progress. Hopefully by Tuesday I'll be back in my parking space behind the building.

Well, I'm back home after four days in Orlando Florida. I was able to get to the Magic Kingdom and Downtown Disney in between working. It was a good experience for me, to get out of the office and see how things operate for the company. Aunt Christine and Uncle Doug, Thank you for a wonderful time, it was great to spend time with you while I was there. Thanks Greg and Brad for giving me the opportunity to travel too! I'm feeling fine, seems that my body has settled down and I'm doing well. More on my escapades tomorrow.

I fly out at 8:00am tomorrow. I finished packing and actually shaved tonight. I'm excited about going to Disney. I'm even excited about working in the Orlando area. I will not have access to a computer, so there won't be any posts until I get back on Thursday. I'll keep a log of my activities so I can write about my experiences. Until then.

Not too much going on today, just lounging around. Been reading and watching TV. Earlier I went and got some prescriptions filled and some stuff to take on my business trip next week. I'm looking forward to getting to Florida, warm weather, sun, Disney. I got my clothes picked out, started organizing things and ready to pack. I will actually do that tomorrow, it'll give me something to do besides laying around. Last night I went with Doug to see Char sing with the band, first time in quite a while. To this day, I still get a kick out of hearing her sing. There was a costume party going on, and there were a number of people dressed as clowns. Frightening. Char and I wailed anytime they were around. Too funny. She always makes me laugh.

Blood levels are all normal including platelets. Good news! I am relieved.

It's just downright cold out. Dreary. I'm doing some laundry, and baking some cookies. They started working on the roof of the apartment building today. There's a big dumpster in the parking lot so I have to park on the street for the next several nights. Hopefully this company will repair the roof properly and it won't leak anymore. Funny thing, it's raining right now, I wonder how far they got today.

The weather is about to turn, become seasonal, cool. I've really been enjoying the hot streak, sorry to see it go. I am glad I'm heading down to Florida, for a stint of warm weather. Oh yeah, work too. I keep thinking it's a Disney trip, when it's really a business trip. With a visit to the Magic Kingdom included!

Another wonderful day, warm, sunny. All too soon it'll be blustery and cool. I went shopping earlier today, got The Jungle Book on DVD and some Reese's Peanut Butter Cups. This is a dangerous time of year for me, all the sales on candy are too irresistible. I had lunch with Mom and Dad and played a game of Scrabble with them afterward. For only the third time ever, I won! It was a really close game, with each of us withing points of each other. It was a good game. Now I'm just waiting for the new Simpsons, Family Guy, and American Dad episodes. One more day of great weather and then back to dreary Fall conditions. My trip to Florida is coming at a good time.

I'm about to start my day, getting outside. No specific plans, just going to wander, see where the road takes me. I want to enjoy the beautiful weather while it lasts. My PT/INR is 3.4, so the doctor has dropped my Coumadin to 5mg per day. That is good! Eventually I will stop taking it all together. That is great! Last night Doug and I got out to Bayshore, had food at California Pizza Kitchen and browsed through a couple of shops. It seemed like I was in an entirely different city, I was impressed. (granted I impress easily!)

Tonight I am lounging. The project is wrapping up and the nights and weekends of data entry are done for now. I will be travelling to Orlando October 15th through the 18th. I am excited, have plans all ready for dinner at EPCOT one night and a trip to the Magic Kingdom another night. I finally stopped and had my blood drawn to have my PT/INR checked. I'm so good at procrastinating. The other morning, I hit a van while making a u-turn going to work. The van driver must have thought I was turning into the lot he was coming out of and pulled out and as I was crossing the intersection, our vehicles came into contact. I have nice scratches along the entire length of the drivers side, nothing too bad, just a nice reminder of the incident. Of course the van never stopped. I pulled over and watched it drive away. Good thing it wasn't serious or I'd be extremely irritated. I hate panel vans.

Still working on the project, but am coming to an end, I am tired. Hopefully it should be done by weeks end. Besides from being worn out from all this work, I'm doing well. Not too much going on outside of work right now, so don't have much to say. Once I can lounge nightly, my mind will wander, and I'll have plenty to comment on.