Thursday, September 24, 2009

One Week To Go

Still plodding away, working on crating up my life, moving to . . .

Thanks to everyone who has been tolerant of me during this time period. Mom, Dad, Scott, Barb, Mike, Tim, Julia, and the neighbors who unknowingly were gracious enough to allow me to use their dumpster, I couldn't have done it all without you!

Monday, September 14, 2009

I Am Atomic

I am taking a break from blogging until after I relocate. The blog will return in October, under a new name and URL. It is going to be more of the same; me rambling, raging, reacting, and reliving those moments that need to be written about. I shall return, recharged and ready to write!

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Busy Days, Busy Nights

It's getting closer to the move and I have finally started to see a dent in the surface instead of a scratch. With the books now gone, floor space available, Tim's help, all of the closets and shelves have been emptied, belongs sorted, packed, or disposed. Now the overwhelming pile of storage crates is mounding. More crating tomorrow, then the real work begins, moving furiture out, into storage. Once that is done, I will feel better, even though the most dreaded part of moving begins. . . cleaning the place up. Fun.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Change Of Address

I've been to Florida countless times, talked on and on about living there, made numerous trips, thought long and hard, focused my efforts, made the decision, spent months preparing. Then one day something changed everything and I am heading in a whole different direction. Still moving Southeast, just not as far as originally planned.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Once Upon A Time

I have spent more time going through my belongings and the memories attached to them. It has been quite an amazing journey. So many little things have such fond memories. It is hard to let go of many incidentals. I am disposing of much clutter and stream-lining, and didn't anticipate the stroll down memory lane.

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Boxes Of Books

I have 100s of books. What to do with them all? I am boxing the majority of them up and going to donate them. I plan on keeping a number of them, one box full. Narrowing them down is going to take some time, some thought, some effort. Certain ones I will definitely hold on to, especially The Book Thief, others most assuredly will be put in the box to be sent off. I didn't realize how many I really had until I started cleaning out closets and shelves and cupboards. There are books everywhere!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

Completely Disorganized

Not even close to being packed and ready to move. I just seem to be moving piles of chaos from one side of the room to the next at this point. Pulling things from the walls, shelves, closets, and creating piles. At some point I'm sure it'll come together and look like an organized mess, yet I just seem to create more and more piles. I am going to call out for help soon, moving is not something one person should be doing on his own. Help?

Wednesday, September 02, 2009


I drifted off to sleep on the couch this morning. (For those of you who are wondering, I actually have been sleeping in my bed as of late.) I had a very strange dream which I will try to convey. I was attending a work(?) function at an old brown-brick school. The halls were decorated with balloons, streamers; pop music playing from the sound system. I was wandering the halls looking for someone. Everyone there was wearing party hats; people from past jobs, old friends, extended family; people I have known throughout the years. In each classroom there were clowns wearing popcorn bucket hats playing carnival games for prizes. As I looked for who I wanted to meet, I wandered outside, into a light rain, lit a cigarette, and watched moving trucks trying to parallel park on the street in front of the school. The leaves were off the trees, which were covered with lights and streamers. I asked people entering and leaving the building if they saw who I was meeting and the answer was whatever song was playing, as if they were singing it. I woke up at that point. It took me a moment to recollect where I was. Strange.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Feeling The Pressure

I realize that I am not prepared for the move as I pretend to be. It is looming in the not so distant future and there is much to be accomplished in the next several weeks and I am confident it will all get done, just need to actually up the motivation level a bit instead of lounging about. Tomorrow. I am the living example of procrastination. Had quite a nice respite from everything, traveling, roaming, wandering, wondering. Several boxes of bubble wrap and a case of Java Monster should help get me going. Tomorrow!

Friday, August 21, 2009

Extended Play

I am going on a vacation, some days here, some days there, some days inbetween here and there. Taking a break from the chaos and the serenity and going to enjoy the dog days. I shall return September 1st. Until then, be good, be safe.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Black Or Brown Cow

While I have always enjoyed having one, this Summer I have been indulging myself with a nightly brown cow. What is a brown cow? root beer and vanilla ice cream. I prefer mine blended, but a float is just as delicious. I have been tempted to use chocolate ice cream, but haven't gotten to just yet. Then again, I am also want to use ginger ale in place of root beer, or even orange soda. There's still plenty of days of Summer left for me to create a yummy treat!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


I am waist deep in boxes, bubblewrap, clothes, chaos, and books. I am making progress, but it still seems like I have way too much to sort through, pack or disregard. So what do I do? Plan a trip for 10 days! Oh well, it'll all be here when I get back!

Sunday, August 16, 2009

The State Of A Fair

Spent the day wandering the fair grounds with Tim and Julia. Stopped and ate our way through the fair, corn dogs, chocolate covered bacon on a stick, deep fried oreos, sausage on a stick with sauerkraut, buffalo burrito, mac and cheese on a stick, root beer milk, chocolate milk, blended mocha freeze, cream puffs. Interesting day of food, music, people-watching. Char was singing at the Budweiser Pavilion, got to see her sing, spending Saturday night hanging out with her at Shank Hall and the eastside last night wasn't enough I guess! Booked a trip on Amtrak for next weekend this morning before heading to the fair. Busy weekend, leading to another busy week of organizing and packing and cleaning and traveling.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Wall Space

Spent much of the day taking down all the pictures and things hanging on the wall, wrapping them up and packing them. I'll continue with the process tomorrow. It is slowly starting to look barren even though there are boxes stacked everywhere, books stacked here and there, belongings pulled off shelves, etc. Eventually I will begin the process of hauling things to various outposts, Goodwill, Used Book Stores, and storage, narrowing down what is going with me to Florida. Of course I am torn by wanting it all, but knowing it doesn't all have to go with me. Picking and choosing is the fun part! At least I know the majority of winter clothes will not be heading out of state!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Special Delivery

I was out and about, went to the book store (again), stopped by Mom and Dad's for a quick visit and returned home. Sitting by the door was a package. I hadn't ordered anything, so I was wondering what it could be. It was a box of dark chocolates and a coffee mug. Something unexpected, touching, and special. Thank you for a wonderful gift. Check Box 28.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

(Un)Social Security Updated

It has been two years in the making and still records have not been updated. The lastest report is somewhat encouraging though. One office located in Chicago has the correct information, but not the money collected from retaining my tax returns and rebate check. This information must be generated at the local office, which will be doing so within the next several months. Until this is resolved, there will be no more attempts to collect money I do not owe. All I can do is wait for the slow wheels of government to grind its way through the process.

Monday, August 10, 2009

One Day Just Like The Others

Back from an extended weekend trip to South Bend Indiana, took Amtrak through Illinois, Indiana, and Michigan. Toured the Notre Dame campus, the riverwalks along the St Joseph River, Hung out at the Chocolate Cafe, crab walked on the astroturf at the college footbal hall of fame, had lots of black cows,and good conversation. Shane is an awesome friend. After several delays in Niles, Michigan and Chicago, I made it back home. It is my birthday and it is just another day, but thanks everyone for the great birthday wishes!

Friday, August 07, 2009

Out Of It

I'm actually getting away for an extended weekend! Hitting the rails and going through four states in four days. Let the journey begin!

Thursday, August 06, 2009

Plane, Trains, and Automobiles

One of my favorite filmmakers passed away today. John Hughes, who created such classic movies as Sixteen Candles,The Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink and Ferris Bueller's Day Off, along with Planes, Trains, and Automobiles, among others defined the 80s, provided moments of sheer entertainment, not to mention the music soundtracks that keep me reminiscing and grooving to this day.

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

A Book By The Cover

So I'm at the store and I notice that on every shelf all the books are turned facedown so the back cover is displayed. I found it rather odd, interesting. At first I thought I was seeing things, but as I wandered aisle by aisle, it was the same. Other people were browsing through the store and I wondered what was going on. The thought crossed my mind that it had to be some sort of prank. Someone must have methodically gone through the book section and turned every book around. I decided to tell a clerk. It was done intentionally, for inventory purposes. Made sense, but just not during shopping hours. I still think it's kind of funny though.

Monday, August 03, 2009

Pop Goes The TV

Today I hauled out things to the dumpster to make room for crates as I fill them. Unfortunately the TV will be going out with everything. As I was busy emptying the front hall of things, I heard a snap. I stopped what I was doing and checked the living room to see where the noise came from. I couldn't see anything amiss, so I turned to go back to what I was doing. As I turned, there was a crackling noise, followed by a loud pop and smoke started rising out from the back of the TV set as the screen went blank. I hurried over and unplugged it from the surge protector. Good thing there isn't anything on TV tonight I must see. Oh well, one less thing that I have to haul with me down to Florida.

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Biking, Brats, Words, Moving

Today was an absolutely beautiful one. I had to get out on the bike trail. Took a nice leisurely ride along the lake. There were a lot of people enjoying the outdoors. Biked over to Mom and Dads, first time for that! Spent the afternoon laying tiles, scrabble tiles with Mom, listening to the baseball game, talking, and having dinner, brat patties with kraut, onion, and swiss cheese, potato salad, beans, and pistachio pudding. I wasn't too sure about the sandwich to start, but have changed my mind and think it was rather tasty. I sat around for a while afterward and headed home. I took a different route on the way back, using the streets instead of heading to the bike trail. The streets are bumpy in Cudahy. Settled in, watching TV and plotting the next step in getting ready for the big move. Tomorrow starts the major push.

Saturday, August 01, 2009


They weren't kidding when they said time flies. I was making out some payments and wrote July on the checks. It wasn't until I jumped on the computer did I realize that it is the 1st of August. I was momentarily confused. I shouldn't be, having been to so many Summer festivals and such, but where did the time go?

Friday, July 31, 2009


It really isn't that big of a thing, yet it seems to be. Today, I gave my notice to vacate the apartment. So begins the daunting task of sorting, tossing, packing, panicking, dragging, hauling, cleaning. I am dealing with moving ten years of accumulated junk and belongings. Today it seems insurmountable, but every day should make things easier. I just need to stay on top of things and not procrastinate, which I find easy to do. Work day to day, get things accomplished, until I close the door on Apartment 6 the last time.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009


The check engine light has been going on, off ocassionaly while driving the Jeep. I figured that I should have it checked out since I am going to be driving the vehicle for a while, and for miles and miles on my journey south. I took it in to have a diagnostic check done and the print out was several feet long, but the actual troubleshooting list was short. The diagnostics detected a cyclinder misfire number 1 withprobable cause ignition system fault-spark plugs, ignition wires, coil (just replaced recently); vacuum leak; injector fault; high or low fuel pressure. Now to disseminate this information and figure out just what the actual issue is and get it fixed. I was relieved it wasn't pages upon pages of defects, I do keep up with the maintenance to keep the Jeep running and I want to keep the Jeep running for some time.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Thinking About Disney

I always have Disney on my mind at some point of the day, whether it's reading the latest news at MousePlanet, AllEars, Etckt, or DisneyBlog, listening to music on my Zune or CDs, or watching DVDs and youtube videos. I was toying with the idea of going to WDW to celebrate my birthday, but with the impending move, it makes more sense to wait until then, when I can get a residents pass, (already budgeted for!). So for now it's memories of past experiences. One that stands out is the time standing in line outside 8-Trax on Pleasure Island, waiting to get in and on comes Our House over the sound system and we all started singing along. Disney always provides such good memories.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Land, Sky, Water

Today turned out to be a nice day to get out on the bike trail. Hopped on the bike and headed along the lake. There were lots of people about, watching the air show. I took several breaks along the route to enjoy the view. I watched the Thunderbirds from the cliffs along the lake in Sheridan Park. I was out on the trail for about three hours total, not sure how far I went, but the legs held up.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Looking And Listening

Shane and his friend Doug came up from South Bend for the Cold Play concert today, started out by going down to German Fest and the Air Show. Wandered around the festival grounds, catching the sights, sounds, smells of German culture, enjoyed a bratwurst, iced tea, bienenstich, stunt planes, and Thunderbirds.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Hopping With Anticipation (pun intended)

I just caught this on Hulu and got excited about Disney returning to traditional hand drawn animation. I will be going to see this in the theater once it is released.

Look Up

Driving along Lincoln Memorial drive on my way to UWM today, they were busy setting up tents for the Air and Water Show. Over the lake planes were practicing manuevers, including the Thunderbirds. Traffic was moving slowly so I got to watch some of the formations and stunts. I was impressed. Not only by the sight of the planes flying, but the the number of vendors and displays being set up. There was a Blue Angel on display that you could even sit in. I'm looking forward to the show this weekend.

Thursday, July 23, 2009


One day I would love to just stop. Whatever. Drinking coffee, facebook, being nice, walking, memorizing faces, reading the paper in the same order every morning, driving a car, liking fish, carrying a wallet, liking people so much, smoking, fantasizing, feeding corporate greed, second guessing myself, craving chocolate, iced coffee drinks, procrastinating, forgetting birthdays, writing checks, being skeptical, daydreaming, underwear, biting my nails, judging people, reality shows, late night sundaes, checking emails, explaining myself, shaving, ironing, drive-thru windows, cell phones . . .

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

A Place To Call Home

Here is a look at my new digs in Fort Lauderdale.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Couch Dancing

I had the chance to reminisce with Jan about the days living on the east side and all the fun, interesting things we did. Videotaping some of the more bizarre moments in the apartment with floors that gleam like glass, nights of reckless abandon, turning up the music and dancing. Dancing until you fell down. Dancing for dancing sake and enjoying the movement, the music, the moment. One of the best memories I carry. We chuckled about attempting to dance like that now, and the day after our conversation, we both acknowledged that we threw on some music and just danced.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

A Day At The Festa

Tim and I went to Festa Italiana, where Julia was singing in the choir, We got to park and enter for free. Had plenty to eat and drink, cappuccino, fried eggplant, chicken parmisan, italian sausage, root beer, gelato, lemonade, cheesecake on a stick. Saw a variety of entertainment, and I got to people watch as well. Next weekend I'll be back down to the festival grounds for German Fest and the air show.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Summer Weather

Yesterday was warm, sunny. Not so much today. Cool, cloudy, rainy. For the most part Summer hasn't been much like Summer. I like warmth, sun. I'll deal with it, not to long before I head out to perpetual Summer (or so I think!). Been running around, meeting up for lunch, dining out, shopping, hanging at the coffee shop, obviously browsing book stores, making the most of the days of Summer.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Overwhelmed, But I Got Books To Read

I wanted to read, but didn't find any book to capture my attention so I ran out to Barnes and Noble to browse through the shelves. Spent a couple of hours, skimmed quite a number of books. At one point, I wanted to grab about 10 different titles. Settled on three paperbacks, all authors I haven't read before. Should keep me busy through the weekend, like having books to pick up and browse when the need to read strikes. The Toffee Mocha from Starbucks is pretty good too!

Overwhelmed, But I Did Get Cheese Slices

I finally ventured into Woodman's Market today after meeting Christine for lunch at Tazino's. The store is huge. I managed to get a parking spot close to the side doors, walked in, grabbed a cart, and wandered. I have been meaning to go there since it opened, but haven't because of it's cavernous size. I drifted aisle to aisle, throwing things I needed as I ran across them. I am not sure I liked shopping there, in part, the frenzied atmosphere of too many people, the long wait at the registers, the unfamiliarity of the layout of the store, and the size of the place left me overwhelmed. The prices were decent, got everything I had on my list, just think I like the small confines of my local grocery store better.

Monday, July 13, 2009

It Begins

I got rolls of bubble wrap today. I am beginning in the kitchen. Going through 100s
of dishes, pans, appliances, utensils, weeding out things I do not want to take with me when I relocate. It's amazing how much stuff you can accumulate in ten years living in the same place. I actually found some things in the cupboard I haven't touched since I moved in, those things are definitely being disposed of. I plan on going room by room, until everything is crated or disgarded. But for now, I'll focus on the kitchen.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Circus Parade

The cirus was in town and I had to go and see the parade. I got yelled at from the Red Cross volunteers for not standing on the other side of the barricade of the watering station and then told by a woman she was saving space for her friends, who never showed. (Clowns I tell ya.) Afterwards, wandered Bastille Days, had some garlic beef skewers, browsed through the vendors, and people watched. It was a perfect day to be outside.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

More Like It

Hot and sunny, just the kind of day I enjoy. Now this is how Summer should be. I woke up very early to the rumble of thunder, wondered if it would be another overcast day. It wasn't. Went for groceries, to the book store, bummed around Bastille Days for a while, and am considering my options for the evening. Tomorrow is going to be another great day, with plenty to do.

Thursday, July 09, 2009


Tim, Julia, and I went down to Northpoint for dinner, over to O'Donnell Park to the circus grounds to look at the wagons, animals, and exhibits for the Great Circus Parade this weekend, and then to Leon's for ice cream last night. I had a good time clowning around the Midway!

Mom and Dad, Happy Anniversary!!!

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

A Day At A Time

Being gone on Monday has completely thrown the week. I wanted to get started on so many things and haven't done much of anything yet. I have time, so that's not an issue, just need a game plan and settle into a routine. Tomorrow. (Procrastination at it's best.) So instead I'm going to have some fun, meeting up for lunches, going out for dinners, street festivals, even the circus. It'll all come together eventually. I think.

Monday, July 06, 2009


I woke up later than usual, to an acrid stench in the air. Out the window I could see an odd cloud formation of black against the bright blue sky. Shortly afterward my cell phone rang and it was Kent telling me to get out, that the city of Cudahy had a mandatory evacuation within one mile of a major fire at the Patrick Cudahy meat packing plant. I told him I wasn't in the area of the fire. I turned on the TV and sure enough, the police were going door to door, telling people to leave and I was in the area being evacuated. Within minutes, there was a knock on my door and it was the police. I threw on a shirt, flips, grabbed my wallet, keys, cell and headed over to my Mom and Dad's. We watched the news for a while and decided to head over to the casino. I managed to turn $20 into $117.35 on one machine. That was the end of my gambling. We stayed and had an early lunch, then back to their home, watched the news, the continuous fire, and no sign of being able to return to my apartment. I went shopping for crates to use for packing, and ate dinner with Mom and Dad. I wanted to return home, moreso because officials said I couldn't. At 7:00pm the order was lifted and I was able to come back. Glad to be on my couch at this time.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Bound And Determined

After much thought and consideration, the decision to move to Florida has been made. I am going to go ahead and follow my instincts, follow a dream, and spend some time in the sun.

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Happy Fourth of July

To everyone who reads by choice, stumbles across, stalks through, random passers, enjoy the Holiday and celebrate!

Friday, July 03, 2009

On The Verge

After several (too many) days of overcast cool weather, the temperature is moving up, skies clearing out, and getting back to Summer. I like. Got my backpack filled with snacks and drinks for the fireworks down on the lakefront tonight, picking up Dad in a couple of hours to head on over and find a good spot to see and feel the fireworks.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

In Tune

I found this while browsing through videos today on you tube. I think it's kind of interesting. I was able to identify all but one song. See how much you know about Disney music, it does have a mix of old and new. I had fun, will post more quizzes as the days progress.

(I still can not believe it's July already)

Monday, June 29, 2009

Cooler By The Lake

Jody and I went to Summerfest today. Free street parking and free entry to the Summerfest grounds. We made our way through the park, enjoying different music, food, and beverages. The weather behaved while we were there, alternating sun and warmth, and clouds and cool breezes. I had a really good time hanging out with Jody down by the lake for the day.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Dad's Birthday

Happy Birthday Dad. Went over to visit, Scott, Bar, Erin stopped by, had brownies and vanilla ice cream to celebrate. Tim and Julia arrived a bit after that and we headed out to Applebee's for a late lunch. Back to Mom and Dad's for brownies and cinnamon ice cream for desert. Michael came over and a rousing game of scrabble ensued. I enjoyed the noise and the company and the day.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Sun, Coffee, And Words

The sun was just rising when I got up this morning. I showered, got dressed, went out for an early morning walk along the lake. Returned home, had a light breakfast, then read for a couple of hours. Headed over to the Fixx for a mocha latte and conversation with Jan. We sat and talked for over three hours. Did a little running around after that, then back home, been reading and watching TV. I started a book yesterday, and am close to finishing it, should be done sometime this evening. It's so easy to get lost in a good book.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Burgers And Ice Cream

Summer days, hot, humid. I love it. Perfect for going to Night Owl for a cheeseburger with fried onions and a chocolate malt and heading to the lakefront.

Thursday, June 25, 2009


Life is so dull
filled with white and black
finding a thrill
staring at the wall

Sitting in your new chair
you're going to be there awhile
you deserve a better life
I deserve a better life

tell me

what's going on in here

Innocent, I'm innocent, Innocent

(Copywritten 1986, To Fall Music MG/SR)

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Back In Wisconsin

Woke up this morning and for a moment I didn't recognize where I was! Then it came to me. No Palm trees out the window. Sigh. Heat and humidity though, which is nice. I had an experience while in Florida. So much to think about now. I could live there, no doubt. The question is do I go live there? This is where it gets difficult for me. As much as I want to (and I do want to), there are things here that I find just as appealling (though not the cold and snow). Some divine guidance would be nice. For now, I will take all things into consideration and see what goes. Thank you Mom and Dad for all your support and understanding!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Florida Edition

It has been an incredible journey. The weather phenomenal, yesterday's high of 100 degrees broke a record set back in the 1940s. The beaches and ocean are beautiful, the city itself is nice, easy to manuever. I am prepared for the trip north.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Florida Edition

Miami was busy, noisy, crowded, and a lot of fun. The Art Deco district and South Beach were crammed with people. Walked Lincoln Road, filled with shops, restaurants. Today, going to a street fair, tomorrow, the River Walk downtown. The weather is hot and humid, with mid-afternoon storms, typical Florida weather. Did I say I like it here?

Friday, June 19, 2009

Florida Edition

Ventured around the vicinity, noting companies today. Stopped and browsed shops, had lunch, even got my haircut. Tonight, I am going out for dinner with Jeff, then to a movie in the park. Tomorrow it's Miami and South Beach!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Florida Edition

I've been finding my way around the city, know how to get downtown and to the beach. Found a McDonald's with free Wi-Fi so each morning I go there for coffee and search the web. I really could live here, just need to find that job.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Florida Edition

I spent the day exploring, getting to know the streets, the city, the rental car. Enjoyed the discoveries, the hot weather, the afternoon rainstorms. I really like it here!

Monday, June 15, 2009


No plane on ground in Milwaukee to take me until 1:07pm. That's a long time from the original 6:10am departure. I'll head back to the airport in five hours...

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Eight Days

so the song goes . . .

my bags are packed, I'm ready to go . . .

leaving on a jet plane . . .

Saturday, June 13, 2009


Spent the day sorting through things to pack for the trip to Florida. I want to make sure I have something to wear for any ocassion that may present itself. This isn't just a vacation, so I can't just take flip flops and a swim suit! I wrestled with my concious over packing socks. Tonight on TV, I watched Haunted Mansion, based on the awesome ride at Disney World. I find it entertaining (the movie), find the ride even moreso. It got me thinking, maybe I need to make a day of it and head over to the Magic Kingdom while in Florida. Oh yeah, it's not a vacation. It's awfully tempting though!

Friday, June 12, 2009

The Blood That Moves The Body

Yesterday, at the Oncologist, I was expecting to hear that everything is going fine, no issues, come back in six months. Well, that didn't happen. This time instead of having low levels, I had elevated ones instead. Additional blood work done shows no real problems relating to lymphoma. Thankfully. Now I can head down to Florida with a clear mind and focus on eight days to change my life. I had a 3 card Tarot reading about my personal journey and the results were rather surprising.

Context - Ace of Swords: Your mind will become sharp and clear. It will be ready to accept new challenges and you will be ready to discuss these new opportunites with others to make the best out of what presents itself.
Focus - Priestess 2: The Priestess represents your dreams. They are sending you a message. You should focus, maybe, on a repetitive dream for the answer. This is our innermost voice attempting to help us out with its wisdom.
Outcome - Devil 15: The Devils card symbolizes some negative place. You are in some sort of uncomfortable situation that you need to free yourself of. It may represent bad habits that need to be dropped such as greed, being blind to truths, etc. It urges a cleansing of the negative karma.

Read into it what you will, but I think it is rather compelling.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

One Of My Favorites

I always laugh my ass off (LMAO) anytime I catch Family Guy on TV. It's shown twice daily locally and numerous times nightly on cable, so anytime I need a laugh, I can tune into the adventures of Peter Griffin, a bumbling, but well-intentioned, blue-collar worker. Peter is an Irish American Catholic with a prominent Rhode Island/Eastern Massachusetts accent. His wife Lois is a stay-at-home mother and piano teacher, and has a distinct New England accent from being a member of the Pewterschmidt family of wealthy socialites. Peter and Lois have three children: Meg, their teenage daughter, who is frequently the butt of Peter's jokes due to her homeliness and lack of popularity; Chris, their teenage son, who is overweight, unintelligent and, in many respects, a younger version of his father; and Stewie, their diabolical infant son of ambiguous sexual orientation who has adult mannerisms and speaks fluently with what some consider an upper-class affected English accent and stereotypical archvillain phrases.[6] Living with the family is Brian, the family dog, who is highly anthropomorphized, walks on two legs, drinks Martinis, smokes cigarettes and engages in human conversation, though he is still considered a pet in many respects.

Many recurring characters appear alongside the Griffin family. These include the family's colorful neighbors: sex-crazed airline-pilot bachelor Glenn Quagmire; mild-mannered deli owner Cleveland Brown and his wife (ex-wife as of the fourth-season episode "The Cleveland–Loretta Quagmire") Loretta Brown with their hyperactive son, Cleveland Jr.; paraplegic police officer Joe Swanson, his wife Bonnie and their baby daughter Susie; paranoid Jewish pharmacist Mort Goldman, his wife Muriel Goldman and their geeky and annoying son Neil; and elderly homosexual ephebophile Herbert. TV news anchors Tom Tucker and Diane Simmons, reporter Tricia Takanawa and Blaccu-Weather meteorologist Ollie Williams also make frequent appearances. The possibly deranged and ethically challenged Mayor Adam West (voiced by and named after the real Adam West) rounds out the recurring cast.

Thanks Wikipedia for the outline and Seth McFarlane for creating such an out of control, hilarious, highly entertaining TV show. Today I needed to laugh.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

All Systems Go

In days I will be setting out on a journey, one I have dubbed eight days to change my life. I have started to gather things together for the trip, downloaded the GPS Navigator program on my cell phone for when I motor through Florida, I just may have an idea of where I'm going. While I will be driving a rental, the Jeep had a minor issue that concerned me for a bit but turned out to be a loose heat protector that made a lot of noise. Doctor appointments have been encouraging and good. I have found my inner spark after a long dark period and have now stopped blaming myself solely for things that have transpired over the course of time, recognizing those involved have their own "issues" that have nothing to do with me. Going through the cycle of renewal.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009


This one's for you.

Monday, June 08, 2009


Today I admitted to someone other than myself my insecurities, doubts, and the tumultuous self destructive journey I have been on. Opening up and letting my fears, faults, and troubles out seems trivial to hear, but sparked a realization in me that hasn't been there for quite some time. What has plaqued me and kept me spiralling for months now has been the fact that I lost my faith in things around me. Trust, decency, respect. I have been beating myself up because I lost those aspects around me and have become wrapped up in finding it around me. I am flawed, and been asking for forgiveness and understanding, but never had I done that for myself. In speaking about my issue, I realized that the faith in myself is still present, not lost, as I perceived it to be. That being said, I still have plenty to comprehend within myself and work to stand again. I've made mistakes, none out of malice or spite, so I am not the monster I have come to believe I must be. I still ache from things that have happened, but in time I will know how I will live with those scars.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

Playing In The Yard

The dogs were barking wildly, so I went to see what the commotion was. Scout and Gem were toying with an injured bird. I got the cats into the barn, tempting them with treats. The bird is alive, in shock, but hopefully it will recover.

Friday, June 05, 2009


Out here, you hear the birds, horses, cows, coyotes. I'm used to hearing cars, airplanes, neighbors.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

I'm Going To Vegas!!!

Well, not really, just going to be house sitting while Scott and Barb go to Vegas. Four days with Baxter, Dory, Scout, and Gem. Four days of pretending to be a homeowner! Four days to soak in the hot tub! I'll be going mobile. So there will be a post or two from the cell phone! Ahh technology! Ahh hot tub!

Wednesday, June 03, 2009


I wrote this back in 2002 for whatever reason. I've posted it here once. I read it and it got me thinking about things.

I couldn’t help but stare at myself in the mirror. Happiness. Anger. Fear. Weariness. Innocence. Loathing. Humility. Frustration. Temptation. Failure. Many were well represented. I almost didn’t recognize myself even though I know myself. I saw things etched there that no longer mattered, affect me throughout, things that haven’t taken there toll yet. I saw too much. I was still that timid little boy awed by the world around me. If I looked hard at myself I could catch a glimpse of him staring back at me in awe and wonder. How one could be marked and weathered and aged.

I have been thinking.

Thinking about what I want to do, where I want to go, what I want to change. I've been thinking about people who have come into my life, thinking about people who have gone too. Thinking how people effect and change a person (me) as I make my way, trying to find the balance, the harmony, the things that make me who I am, the things I am capable of, being witty, enthusiastic, popular, intelligent, gifted, vibrant, magnanimous, charismatic, principled, self-sufficient, compelling, sentimental, accomplished, noble, healthy and work on being less bombastic, dissatisfied, ruthless, demanding, opinionated, mawkish, egocentric, defensive, foolhardy, willful.

I have been thinking.

thinking how nice it would be to have Char call me up and say hey let's go shout out suggestions for the actors at the next Comedy Sportz show, or to have Brian call me and say let's go over to the bookstore and browse the shelves, Doug to call me up and say we need to get down to Six Flags and ride the Raging Bull a few times, Kim to call and say let's go rent some movies and sit up all night talking.

Thinking about how things were, when did things change? Enough is enough. You have caused too many problems. You have crossed the line. You have taken advantage of things for the last time. Is that who you see me as? I am not that person. I have been thinking that.

I have been thinking about how Mom calls and says you want to play a game of scrabble and order a pizza?, about Tim and Julia calling and saying we need to get down to the Outlet Mall in Kenosha, or Jody calling and saying "Cha-Ching", Pat calling from Michigan and saying I was just thinking about you, thought I'd give you a call, Christine calling and saying it's all about the Big Mac.

I have been thinking about the people in my life, the people I wanted in my life, the ones who make a difference, the ones I could talk to about anything and everything. Focusing on what made the world a little better, brighter.

I reflect upon the good times, the not so good times and think of the people who get me through it all.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Late Night Scrabble Games

Since I have time (too much) on my hands and mind, I stay up late into the wee morning hours playing Scrabble online. I've been playing for weeks now, one on one with people from around the world. I mostly have been playing against two people, Scott from Fort Lauderdale and Shane from South Bend, game after game. We chat, play words, sometimes help each other, sometimes badger each other. I look forward to these tournaments throught the week. Sometimes a game stretches over a number of days, playing when we can. Sometimes it's a marathon, two or three games in a night. When that occurs, the next day is pretty much wasted, I am burnt out and exhausted!

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Cooler By The Lake

I went for a bike ride along the lake today. The sun was out, seemed inviting, so I got on the bike and headed for the trails. The sun shining can be deceiving, it was definitely cool out, not as warm as yesterday. Needless to say, I pedaled on. Got a rhythm going as was enjoying the ride. Along the way, a deer started to cross the path and stopped directly in front of me, blocking my way. I slowed to a stop about ten feet from the animal and we looked at each other. I fumbled for my cell phone to get a picture, talking to the deer, telling it that I was going to snap a picture. The deer watched me for a while, turned it's head, glanced back at me, then turned back into the brush. By the time I got to the camera feature, the deer was gone. With the trail open again and nothing blocking me, I continued on the route. I found the encounter pretty amazing, pretty darn cool if you ask me. Just wish I had been able to capture the moment.

Friday, May 29, 2009


Went and saw the latest Disney/Pixar movie UP today. It was entertaining, funny, touching, and magical. The talking dog, his obsession with squirrels, and the South American bird named Kevin brought laughs and memories. I definitely left the theater in an UP mood! Go see it!

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Get The Picture

I had an Olympus Stylus digital camera that has gone on many trips and took some wonderful pictures of my adventures. On one of the last trips, I used it to take some in the water, as it could be used in a water environment as long as it isn't submerged. Well, the water tight seal wasn't so water tight and the insides did get wet and the xD card reader shorted out. The camera was under warranty, so I shipped it off for repair back in February. Today I received what I thought was my camera back from the manufacturer. It wasn't. It is a brand new camera, an upgrade! I am now charging the battery and will be giving the camera a test run to check it out. Yay, I'll be able to take pictures while I'm scouting Florida locations!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I'm Guilty

I took a nap on this gray, rainy, cold day. The television was on, droning in the background. I had it on the Disney channel. In between sleep and waking up I heard this song and it rattled through my head, even when I dozed off again. I had to find out what it was after I got up and it was still stuck in my head. And I like it lots! HEY!!!!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Walking In The Rain

I didn't mean to. I obviously didn't listen to the weather. Went for a walk down by the lake and it started to rain. I was soaked by the time I made it home. It was a cool evening and I wanted to get out for a while, get off the couch, away from the TV. Grabbed the Zune, threw on a jacket, and out the door. At first I didn't mind when it started to rain, but soon it got cold and uncomfortable. When I got back, I took a hot shower to warm up and am now on the couch, watching TV. I should have gone earlier, after I met Judy for lunch and browsed at Target. Oh well, it makes for an interesting story.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Memorable Day

Up early, laundry, reading. Then over to Mom and Dads for a visit. I brought along a gift for them. It is a hard to come by item. Since I spend lots of time surfing the Internet, I found it. I ordered a number of them to give as gifts. Ate lunch, played a rousing game of scrabble, did a crossword puzzle, stayed for dinner. Came home, napped, watching another ANTM marathon, reading, whistling.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Wheels In Motion

a cool rainy morning made way for blue skies, sun, warmer temperatures. Ran out early and went grocery shopping before the crowds. Napped and read for a while. Got the bike out of storage and took it for a ride along the lake. Went the distance and only stopped to rest at a picnic table along the trail once on the way back. I definitely need to shape up a bit. I'll take it a mile at a time.

I have now made arrangements for my journey to Florida. I have book my flight and rental car for June 15th through the 23rd. I will be exploring the region, scoping out potential employment and housing. After all these years of talk, I am finally going to do something about my dreams.

Tomorrow looks to be a nice day weather-wise. Thinking about pulling out the bow and arrow and heading over to the archery field and giving that another try. I'm sure I'll have to condition myself for that too, but it is something I want to do and now's the time to do it. I'll see, lounging on the couch is just as appealling.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

There's Something In These Dreams . . .

With one phone call the plan is in motion...

more to follow

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

It Depends On Who You Talk To

Since it was such a beautiful day out, I decided to get out there and enjoy it. Went to Stone Creek Coffee, ordered a Mocha, and sat out on the patio. I watched traffic, I watched people, I watched birds, enjoyed the sun. A guy came out to sit in the sun and took the table next to me. We started talking. Turns out he has stage 4 Hodgkin's Lymphoma, terminal. We chatted for about thirty minutes. Lokking at him, you would never guess he was ill, but the lymphoma was spread throughout his body, he has been battling it for about five years. Conventional treatment has not been working so he is going through three different experimental treatments. He told me he knew what he was facing, yet was happy, optimistic. I ended up telling him my story, my situation. He listened and gave me advise in parting. Follow your heart.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Passenger 13509

Today, My Mom, Dad, and I ventured down to the museum to tour the RMS Titanic exhibit. We roamed through other displays, including the butterfly wing before our scheduled tour. Upon arrival we were given a boarding pass with details of a passenger on board the Titanic for it's maiden Atlantic voyage. I received ticket 13509 Mr. Francis Davis Millet, East Bridgewater Massachusetts, First Class Cabin E-38. The display started with champagne bottles found at the wreckage site. We then boarded the ship and were able to view the accommodations, and the night of her final passage. Of all the artefacts on display, the one that struck me the most was a stewards jacket from one of the crew members. The display included a real iceberg that you could touch, fixtures from the ship, a section of the hull, and personal items recovered. There were accounts from passengers aboard, including plenty of pictures on display. As the tour ended, there was a log of surivors. "I" (Passenger 13509) was among those lost that night. It was a very well done presentation and I enjoyed the experience.

Monday, May 18, 2009

Disney Moments

I find that no matter how I am doing, I am moved by the wonders of Disney animation. I spend many hours watching the movies, have them all on VHS and DVD. There's a magic to them that I find captivating and uplifting. These are two of my favorite songs, one from The Lion King and one from The Lion King II. Inspirational, Powerful.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Flat Tire

I went out for a bike ride earlier today. Got about two miles into the ride when I noticed the back tire was losing air. I turned around and headed home, by the time I was a block away, I had to walk the bike. I have an air pump, so I went to reinflate the tire, but I ended up pushing the stem down into the rim and could not attach the pump. I'll be lugging the bike over to Mom and Dad's to get some help. I want to get back on the bike path!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Changes Are Coming

Over the next few weeks I am going to be tinkering with the format/layout of the blog. So things will look different on occasion until I figure out what I want to do with it. It's time for an overhaul.

Storm Chasing

I am fascinated by storm chasers. I watch shows about this whenever I come across them on TV. There has been some pretty incredible footage of tornados captured by the chasers. I certainly wouldn't want to put myself in the path of an oncoming storm, but am intrigued by the people who do. I do appreciate a good thunderstorm though.

Friday, May 15, 2009


I am sleepy. Been sleeping all evening. Up for a little while, yawning. ready to go back to sleep. It's just one of those tired and sleepy days.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

A Box Of Feathers

A mystery in the making. I received a package via UPS. I couldn't recall purchasing anything recently so thought somebody sent me a present. (I'm deserving.)

It has a typed label with my name and address, with a return address out of Florida. A web search has come up empty, no identification, and the UPS site is not informative either. What's interesting is the contents. Feathers. Lots of feathers. White with black tips. Hmmm...

When you find feathers upon your path it could be taken to mean that you are on a higher spiritual path (whether you accept it or not), and it may be a sign of encouragement as you philosophically travel on this path.

Finding feathers on your path is also symbolic of having a lighter outlook on life or a particulary situation. When we see feathers in our midst it is considered a message that we need to lighten up, not take things too seriously, and try to find the joy in our situation.

Some common symbolic meaning of feathers are:

Heightened awareness
Light heartedness

Interesting indeed . . .

Tuesday, May 12, 2009


You have come out with the Oceanic soul type. This would describe you as a person who is generally happy inside with an array of surfacing moods that tend to effect the people around you more than you would like. You are very busy dealing with things that seem like they would make no sense to the people in your life. You long for communion emotionally with someone but can't seem to find anyone who fits the bill. It is exceedingly important for an Oceanic soul to realize they are part of something by nature that is so vast, so incredible, so infinitely changing that they do not need to 'connect' the way they have learned to think that they do. All they really need to do is take notice of the beauty they are a real bonafide part of and participate fully. It is by exerting will in this small behavioral way that will bring them into a light that is very attractive to the right kind of people for them. Ironically, once an Oceanic realizes what they are a part of and starts to really willfully participate, they no longer feel such a need for get busy Oceanic soul! You have a lifetime of tides to ebb and flow through, and a whole world of beauty to be a part of.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

All For You Mom

Got to spend the day over by Mom and Dads. Coffee, Donuts, Chocolate milk, Scrabble, Dinner, Conversation, Brothers, Sisters, Phone calls, Baseball, time together. It was a good day. Love you Mom!

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Cat Mechanic

While changing the spark plugs, wires, distributor cap, and rotors, Scout (or Gem, not sure which) came to see what was happening in the barn.

Pretending To Be

Car mechanic.

Friday, May 08, 2009


My brother Tim has been talking about two magnolia trees down on the UWM campus for weeks, waiting for them to bloom. Back in the day when I wandered the campus, the trees were there, and I was oblivious to them as I walked by them. For the first couple of weeks they were budding, unremarkable in their appearance. I didn't see them last week, so we walked by them this week. They were in full bloom. Beautiful, Stately, Majestic and the air around them scented. I never knew they were magnolia trees.

Today is a warm Spring day, so instead of hopping in the car to run errands, I decided to walk to the auto parts store. It was nice to get out and enjoy the weather. I purchased the spark plugs, wires, rotor, and cap needed to tune up the Jeep and walked home along Lake Drive. I noticed a number of blossoming magnolia trees on the way home. I smiled as I passed, a secret revealed, a little truth in the beauty of trees, a little bit of knowledge of the wonder of nature.

Thanks Tim!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

A New Dog

The day is warm, some sun, perfect to get outside. Did a little job hunting this morning, some reading, then got ready to meet Tim for lunch down at UWM. Got there at my regular scheduled time, had to wait an hour for his assistant to arrive. We chatted, surfed the net ubtil Aaron showed up. Then we walked over to the Dogg Haus, where I had to get the Atlanta Dog. Usually I get a Chicago dog, buttoday I wanted to try something new. The Atlanta Dog is a chili dog, with onions and cole slaw on top. All I can say is YUM. I wolfed it down before Tim was half way through his meal. I still favor my Chicago Dog, but have another new favorite!

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

A Little JTLC

I took a detour today from my normal couch surfing, job hunting ways. The Jeep needed a little care, so I went and got the oil changed, tires rotated, air filter replaced, fluid levels checked. Now to get the spark plugs and distributor cap fitted and the Jeep will be running like a champ!

Monday, May 04, 2009

The Swim Of Things

The day went by fast. Up early, online job hunt, quick shower and over to Mom and Dad's for a journey to Gurnee. Acquired a new slow cooker. After shopping, a stop for lunch. Back home and I read, fell asleep, up for dinner. Afterward I wanted to get out and do something. I searched the Internet and discovered that Pulaski Pool has open swim. Without hesitation, I grabbed my suit and headed over to the pool before I talked myself out of it. I got there, not too crowded, changed, and swam some laps. Not my best effort, but I actually did it, enjoyed it, will do it again. Could this be the start of something. . .? Hmmm . . .

Sunday, May 03, 2009

The Swing Of Things

I wandered the lake front this morning. Sat on the cliff and just wondered. How did I get to this point, how do I shake the feeling of desolation, where am I going? I gave everything to those I counted on, everything and feel empty now. Somehow this song captures me as I am. I sat on the cliff and revelled in the beauty, the simplicity, the complexity of nature. Sat and watched.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Up With The Sun

Early morning for me today. Going to start some laundry, finish the book I'm reading, then get outside. The sun is out, it's supposed to be a nice day, and I want to enjoy it away from the couch!

Yesterday, I got in contact with an old friend I used to work with years ago(actually, she contacted me), and as we were talking she informed me she had been diagnosed with hodgkin's lymphoma in February and is currently going through treatment. It started a long conversation as I told her about my experience with the disease, she told me hers. It was a good conversation for the both of us.

Last night, I talked with my friend who just finished her treatment for colon cancer for over an hour. She has responded well to them and is hoping for a reprieve, depending on test results and scans. I am hopeful too.

Oh, it's 7:01am and I can now use the laundry facilities, so starts my day.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Early In The Morning

3am. The phone rings. I reach out. Answer it. Dial tone. I'm up. Get dressed. Brush teeth. Gel hair. The phone rings. Again. I reach out. Answer it. Jody is on her way. Grab my keys. Head out the door. Foggy. Streets deserted. 20 minutes go by. 80 blocks go by. 4 cars go by. She's waiting. In the lobby. 9 hours go by. 1,000s of people go by. $111.37 more than I had. I leave. Drive home. Nap. Still tired.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Viewing Habits

Having time on my hands, I have become accustomed to the day time TV schedule on cable. I now find myself watching shows that I never would have given a second glance to. One in particular is Little House on the Prairie. I ran across it while flipping channels one day. Every morning I tune in to see it. Today's episode happened to be about Mary going blind and I found myself on the edge of my seat as her sight failed and wanted to scream as she cried out for Pa. I laugh at myself for this one, I never would have thought I'd be hooked on the saga of the Ingall's family as I was as a child. I need to find a job!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I Got It

I'm done with moping around. Today brought the one thing I needed to let the past go, embrace the future. Oh yeah, there were actually jobs to apply for online too!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Words To Live By

Lately I have been searching. Searching for a way to put myself together again. I feel adrift, lost. things unravelled for me back in December, have continued to go haywire since. It seems like everything I am trying to accomplish just falls apart. My mindset is on uprighting myself, getting things in order, back to good. While on the Internet today, I came across a quote from Mother Teresa, which I have read before. It really moved me, carries a powerful message. I will now instill it into myself, my life.

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it. Life is beauty, admire it. Life is bliss, taste it. Life is a dream, realize it. Life is a challenge, meet it. Life is a duty, complete it. Life is a game, play it. Life is a promise, fulfill it. Life is sorrow, overcome it. Life is a song, sing it. Life is a struggle, accept it. Life is a tragedy, confront it. Life is an adventure, dare it. Life is luck, make it"

Friday, April 24, 2009

Let The Sunshine In

The day is sunny, warm, have the windows open wide and am enjoying it very much. Tonight I am going to see Hair at the UWM Peck School of the Arts with Char, Tim and Julia. I'm looking forward to it, the performance, the music, and getting to spend some time with friends and family, who bring sunshine into my life.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Just What I Needed . . .

I was online today applying for a job in web design. The job site sent me to the companies website to fill out a questionnaire about my experience. About half way through a pop up window appeared thanking me for applying, and based on the answers provided, I did not meet the eligibility requirements. I laughed, even though I was disappointed.

In the mail today I received the first unemployment compensation check along with two letters denying me four weeks of unemployment for not following proper procedure when registering. Again I had to laugh, even though I was disappointed by more government bureaucracy.

Then I read my brother Patrick's blog. Again I laughed. And I smiled. And I cried. Somehow he always finds a way to be there for me.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

The Standard

Another day of searching online for a suitable career. I have applied for so many positions now that I do not remember all of them. I'm going to start a log of every job I apply for from this point on. For the amount of jobs I applied for, I have received just a few rejection emails. They are all pretty standard, formal, impersonal, cold. Here is a copy:

Dear Matthew,

Thank you for submitting your resume to [comapny deleted] for consideration.

We are fortunate to have many qualified candidates apply to each of our
positions. We have reviewed the qualifications of each candidate and after
careful consideration, we have determined that the credentials of other
candidates may better fit our needs at this time.

Good luck on your search for employment.

The only nice thing is these companies actually acknowledge that you have expressed interest.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Rain Rain Go Away

Today has been overcast and the rain makes me sleepy (like I need an excuse to nap the day away). Yesterday was such a nice warm day. I ventured over to Mom and Dad's for lunch, Michael stopped over, we played a game of scrabble, then Pat and Toni came by, then Tim and we all sat around the kitchen table laughing and talking and had a good visit. I read in the evening, went to bed, got up early and headed down to the casino with Mom and Dad, where I ended up winning $100.21 for my efforts. Too bad that only happens once in a while, Ireally need to avoid the casino these days! Came home and napped and read. I blame it all on the dreary day. What'll be my excuse for tomorrow?

Saturday, April 18, 2009

The Moon, The Stars, The Symphony

Last night Tim, Julia, and I went out for dinner at the Carleton Grange, where we all enjoyed a fish fry. We had attempted to go to the South Shore Inn, but their kitchen is closed for renovations. After dinner, we headed over to the Wehr Nature Center, met up with Michael, and were going to go on the Moon Stroll/Astronomy Hike. It was a preregistered event, not show up and participate one so we ventured out on our own nature walk. As it grew darker, we stopped back at the car to get a flashlight and ventured back to the trails. we ended up near a lake sitting on a pier talking when we all noticed the geese were starting to become restless, noisy. They grew louder and louder, we saw geese fighting, flying across the water, it was chaotic. We watched in amazement as it continued on, the geese were definitely battling, their cries echoing, creshendoing, a cacophony of noise. As I listened, it reminded me of music, a song of nature. It was amazing. After a while the geese started settling down, the dance, the song over. We walked back to the car, went to Kopps, then to Barnes and Noble. I really enjoyed the night.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

The Leo Dragon

Everything won't be so easy during these days: despite some valuable awareness, you'll go through moments of stress, disillusions, and conflicts. If your heart is free to be taken, you'll make an encounter of paramount importance during a meeting at your close relatives' house. Your resistance against microbial and viral infections will be reduced; therefore, redouble your precautions and consider, for example, taking a trace-element treatment so as to reinforce the natural defenses of your body. The stars will protect you, and nothing serious can bring you down. Try to be much more tactful so as to improve things. Your cholesterol level could increase; get a blood test made, replace meat with fish more often and butter with vegetable oils. You can count on some valuable friendly support, which will give you the means of carrying out a project that you have so close to your heart.

This is my horoscope for the next month. I'll see how things pan out.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

The Phone Won't Stop Ringing

Today my telephone (landline) has been ringing non-stop. Some of the calls I actually answered, most I've let the answering machine get. Seems that since I have registered at so many job sites, my name has been released to many solicitors, none of which I am interested in dealing with. So much for the no call list. When the phone rings, I look to see who it is, if I don't recognize the name, I don't answer. Unfortunately none have been job offers, prize notifications, or the one person who I want to talk to the most. Oh well, the answering machine is keeping busy.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


I had the second helping of ham, turkey, green beans, stuffing, and sweet potatos from Easter dinner tonight. It was a great meal on Sunday, a great meal last night, and a great meal tonight as well. Sometimes leftovers are better than the actual meal itself. Today was no exception. When a meal is great to start with, tou can;t have bad leftovers. And do I love sweet potatos!

Monday, April 13, 2009


Today is rather overcast and rainy. I've had a pounding headache all day, took some excedrin earlier and pretty much napped the afternoon away. I applied for some jobs online, contemplating my next approach in finding a job, and thinking about getting Windows certification to add to the resume. Looking for a job is a headache in itself, given the current economic situation. The search continues . . .

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Hoppin' Down The Bunny Trail

Happy Easter to everybody! Family, friends, readers, enjoy the day! Peter Cottontail wouldn't have it any other way . . .

Friday, April 10, 2009

Seeing Red (Lobster)

The ad for lobsterfest got me craving. Craving for their garlic cheddar biscuits. So when Julie suggested we meet for lunch, the obvious choice was Red Lobster. I met Julie and Hiro when it opened today, and dined on biscuits, seafood stuffed mushrooms, wood fire grilled chicken, and garlic shrimp skewers. Yum! Then we stopped at Starbucks, grabbed some coffee, and went to her house for the afternoon. Watched Finding Nemo, well, it was on while Hiro entertained me before nap time!

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Seeing Red (from laughing at myself)

So I just got in about 20 minutes ago from sitting in the lobby of the building because I ran out to catch the UPS man and let the door close behind me and didn't have my keys. I wasn't wearing shoes either. Of course no one was around to answer the buzzer and I had to wait until someone cam home. It was a little after 7:00pm when I heard the truck arrive, my buzzer doesn't work, so I had to go downstairs. I missed Survivor, Hell's Kitchen, and Harper's Island, Funny thing is, the same thing happened to me last year. I do like the messenger bag I ordered to carry my lap top in though!

Seeing Red (Tape)

Yesterday I went to lunch with Christine and one of the topics of discussion was unemployment benefits. I haven't gotten any notification since originally filing, and neither had she, and others let go from the company have been collecting benefits. So I wondered if the Social Security issue was affecting my unemployment somehow. I attempted to access my account online but was directed to call. So this morning I did. After waiting 40 minutes, I finally got a representative. My unemployment claim had been closed due to inactivity!?! I explained that after my initial filing, I have not received any notifications. The rep started explaining to me that I was to follow the online instructions and had failed to do so, thus the claim was closed. I told her I was waiting for further information and didn't realize that I was approved immediately. After being lectured, I had to reapply for unemployment benefits. I am now reregistered and can collect benefits while I am unemployed. I was releived in a way that social security wasn't involved, but frustrated by the process which should be simpler than it is. I realize I do not like dealing with government offices.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Shopping Spree

Today I went shopping. Shopping for a job. Got dressed in nice pants, shirt, sweater, headed to a Job Fair and went through from table to table. Left my resume with some, chatted with some. Not really into the whole job fair scene, too much chaos and superficiality. The best part of the morning was wearing the shoes I bought a few weeks ago! I stayed for about an hour. Then I went to the grocery store and loaded up on food. Have a nice stocked freezer, refrigerator, and cupboards now. After I got home, I surfed job boards online, applied for a number of jobs posted. Now I've got yet another ANTM marathon showing on TV, a Java Monster open, and about to pick up my latest book.

Sunday, April 05, 2009

Lazy Days

Been doing pretty much of nothing lately. Applying for jobs online, reading, watching TV, listening to music. Got to the book store for a while yesterday, the casino today. Going to settle in for the coming storm, do some laundry and just lounge. Stocked up on Java Monster, Kool-Aid, Chicken Strips, and Mac & Cheese so I'm good for the day or ow long the duration the storm is. Today seems to be a good one to just be lazy.

Friday, April 03, 2009

A Little Pampering



I needed to clean myself up a bit, so when the job interviews start rolling in, I look presentable. I went to Sportcuts and had a haircut, hot towel wrap, and a neck & shoulder massage. I feel Pretty! Damn! Good!

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Hairy Situations

Situation One:

1:00pm today the line for Taco Bell is not moving, stretching through the hallway at UWM, quick decision, let's go to Qdoba on Oakland, order queso burrito, black beans, sour cream, salsa. good, tasty, filling, 3/4 finished, take a forkful, encounter clump of hair, notify indifferent manager, "what do you want me to do with it?", "it's on top not in the food", offer of a burrito to go, I'll pass, thank you, emailed the corporation once I returned home

Situation Two:

9:15pm yesterday knock at the door, neighbor across the hall is standing there dressed in torn shorts, his elbow wrapped in a towel, blood flowing, he fell in the shower, his elbow smashing the ceramic soap dish on the wall, does he need to go to the emergency room, can I check to see just how bad he's cut, the blood won't stop flowing, unwrapped, there's still a shard of ceramic in the wound, tweezers, a quick pull, it's removed, compression, talking in the hallway, the blood stops, the wound isn't bad, more talking, and it's decided no emergency room visit

Situation Three:

9:00am yesterday getting dressed for the day, pull on a sweater, it's got dog hair on it, from an old friend, and it's all in the foreground again, when will it pass, when does it stop, when does the hurting end

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


I answered a simple trivia question while chatting with friends on FaceBook last evening about who performed the song Pop Muzik (M). Unbeknownst to me, I won the coveted blogger award the Silver Squirrel for useless trivia! A number of people compete for this award on a reoccurring basis and I got it just by conversing! I am proud of this accomplishment!

Monday, March 30, 2009


I was at a McDonald's over the weekend where the computer system wasn't working so the employees were taking orders by hand, writing down the order, using calculators to add up the bill, and using a cash box. It was rather interesting and amusing and felt like stepping back in time. During the snow storm over the weekend, there was thunder and the power went out four times within a twenty minute period early Sunday morning. It woke me up. It was rather interesting, amusing, and annoying.

Friday, March 27, 2009

In Search Of . . .

Spent the day sending out resumes online, applied to a multitude of IT jobs, mostly in Florida. Since most companies now have web sites, it is easy to search the web and apply for jobs, no more hoofing it from company to company, yet it seems like I haven't done much in the way of job searching since I don't have to leave the couch to do it. I met Christine and Kristi for lunch at McDonald's (Yum, Filet o' Fish) just to get out of the house for a while. Yesterday I went over to UWM and had lunch with Tim, now a weekly tradition! The entire campus is Wi-Fi (wireless), so I am going to take the laptop with me on the next trip. There's a snow storm looming, so I just might hang low this weekend. I just want nice weather now, enough with the snow all ready!!! I am also toying with the idea of driving down to Florida to look for jobs, but right now it's just a thought . . .

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Technically Speaking

I received my new cell phone today and have it charging up. There are so many features to this phone it's going to take me days to figure out what I'm doing. Don't be surprised if I accidently ring you in the next couple of days! I'm excited to have it and going to be utilizing it alot. I like my new toy and I haven't even used it yet!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Looking Pt II

I am processing things as I go along and I realize this is all part of letting go, moving on. While it has been difficult, I find myself thinking about past events, places, people, all the interesting, wild, fun adventures as a way of looking to the possibilities and adventures that await me. Those things will always be a part of me, a part of who I am. Of course, part of me still wants what was, all the good things, but I know things aren't what they were and could never be at this point. It's hard to let go, but harder to remain where I'm at. So I look to the future. It's wide open...

Monday, March 23, 2009


I never thought that at this point in my life I would be looking for so many things. Not too long ago I was in the groove, had a circle of friends that I really enjoyed knowing, which has since disappeared just like that. I had a job, that while wasn't the best match for me, was challenging, interesting, kept me occupied, now that's disappeared too. Too many bumps in the road and the self confidence shrinks, disappears like that too. I can take the hits, shake myself off, move on, but it is a bit much at once. I looked for a job and insurance today (even though I most likely will go with COBRA thanks to the President's 65/35 initiative which makes it affordable. I will continue to get my resume out there, found a couple of job sites I will be signing up at. As for the circle of friends, that seems to me the most daunting of tasks, to put myself out there after all these years. A job certainly would help me afford to get out and socialize. I hate to say it, but I sure do miss the friends that have gone.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Networking (Notworking)

I went and purchased my new laptop computer. It had to be done. It will be easier to research on the Internet now, look for jobs, stay connected. That is if I ever get my wireless network up and running. The simple install has become quite a process, spent many hours trying to get it to work, to no avail. At one time I couldn't even access the web with my old desktop. Yikes. I still haven't gotten the laptop to identify the wireless router even though it is working and the network has been created and identified by the desktop computer. I'll keep trying. In the meantime, I'll just use a wireless signal the laptop is picking up from someone else in the neighborhood . . .

Friday, March 20, 2009

A Day Like Any Other

Well, it is the first day of Spring, otherwise it's pretty much the same. Not too many job postings to choose from, going to have to get more active on the job search, actually go to a job service or something. Glad I made it through Winter. Not particularly a pleasant one for me. It had it's moments. I ordered a new cell phone (which I will post about once I receive it). I also found the lap top computer I want. Now to debate whether or not to actually purchase it. I do need a new computer, the one I'm using is eight years old and I have to wrestle with it more and more to stay connected. Had lunch this week with Jody, Tim and Christine, been spending much of the time reading, watching TV. It's just another day.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Home Invasion

The weather is absolutely wonderful. Sunny, warm, windy. I propped open the windows for the first time this year. Along with the warmer weather comes the swarm of Asian beetles that call the front windows home. There are 100s of them. I could spend the day vacuuming them up and there still would be 100s more clustered in the windows. It's almost like they're crawling out of the woodwork. I just can not get rid of them. Oh well, I suppose if I get out and enjoy the nice weather, why shouldn't they? Creeping, nasty little critters.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Oh The Horror!!!

I stayed up way too late last night watching horror movies on cable TV last night. I turned off the TV around 3:30am and settled into a rough sleep. About 9:00am I finally got moving. I ran a couple of errands and took a walk since it was a really nice day out. I was unproductive on the job search, but will get into the swing of things for sure tomorrow. Yesterday afternoon I stopped by Mom and Dad for lunch and two games of scrabble (won one just barely, lost one considerably). Then I read, watched TV and planned on going to bed early. Then I started watching FX. The movies were bad, but I couldn't help but watch them.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Winds Of Change

Today was a nice day out. Sunny, not bitter cold, the promise of Spring, beautiful days, no more snow, frigid weather. I am liking DST already, not so dark, at 5:00pm. Got out, went to the book store, then lunch with Jan at Baker's Square. Browsed books on job searches, resumes, found one on ancient Egypt that I ended up buying. I received my severance check in the mail today, closing out an 11 year run. Things are definitely different in my life, major changes coming down the pipeline. There's the shift in my circle of friends, one I really am sorry to see go. The job hunt will be amping up, and I will go where the job is. New places, new people, new responsibilities. Certainly change is in the air.

Friday, March 13, 2009

My Couch

I love my couch. It is such a big part of my life. I eat on it, watch TV, movies, videos, DVDs, sleep on it, read, lounge, talk on the phone, socialize, nap, plan, so much. Slightly worn tan crushed velvet high back, not a bad color and could fit through the doorway of my apartment building. I’ve had it for many years; it’s starting to show. I will have to get a new one at some point soon. I don’t want to though. Sitting on the couch I can have real or imaginary conversations, wild fantasies, troubled woeful lonely times. Sitting on the couch comforts me, supports me, holds me, soothes me. My couch doesn’t judge me, doesn’t push me away. Without a doubt, I love my couch.