Feeling The Pressure 5:39 PM

I realize that I am not prepared for the move as I pretend to be. It is looming in the not so distant future and there is much to be accomplished in the next several weeks and I am confident it will all get done, just need to actually up the motivation level a bit instead of lounging about. Tomorrow. I am the living example of procrastination. Had quite a nice respite from everything, traveling, roaming, wandering, wondering. Several boxes of bubble wrap and a case of Java Monster should help get me going. Tomorrow!

Rescheduled 8:25 PM

I am waist deep in boxes, bubblewrap, clothes, chaos, and books. I am making progress, but it still seems like I have way too much to sort through, pack or disregard. So what do I do? Plan a trip for 10 days! Oh well, it'll all be here when I get back!

A Book By The Cover 5:16 PM

So I'm at the store and I notice that on every shelf all the books are turned facedown so the back cover is displayed. I found it rather odd, interesting. At first I thought I was seeing things, but as I wandered aisle by aisle, it was the same. Other people were browsing through the store and I wondered what was going on. The thought crossed my mind that it had to be some sort of prank. Someone must have methodically gone through the book section and turned every book around. I decided to tell a clerk. It was done intentionally, for inventory purposes. Made sense, but just not during shopping hours. I still think it's kind of funny though.

Florida Edition 9:18 AM

It has been an incredible journey. The weather phenomenal, yesterday's high of 100 degrees broke a record set back in the 1940s. The beaches and ocean are beautiful, the city itself is nice, easy to manuever. I am prepared for the trip north.

Certainty 5:52 PM

This one's for you.

Late Night Scrabble Games 7:01 PM

Since I have time (too much) on my hands and mind, I stay up late into the wee morning hours playing Scrabble online. I've been playing for weeks now, one on one with people from around the world. I mostly have been playing against two people, Scott from Fort Lauderdale and Shane from South Bend, game after game. We chat, play words, sometimes help each other, sometimes badger each other. I look forward to these tournaments throught the week. Sometimes a game stretches over a number of days, playing when we can. Sometimes it's a marathon, two or three games in a night. When that occurs, the next day is pretty much wasted, I am burnt out and exhausted!

Walking In The Rain 8:25 PM

I didn't mean to. I obviously didn't listen to the weather. Went for a walk down by the lake and it started to rain. I was soaked by the time I made it home. It was a cool evening and I wanted to get out for a while, get off the couch, away from the TV. Grabbed the Zune, threw on a jacket, and out the door. At first I didn't mind when it started to rain, but soon it got cold and uncomfortable. When I got back, I took a hot shower to warm up and am now on the couch, watching TV. I should have gone earlier, after I met Judy for lunch and browsed at Target. Oh well, it makes for an interesting story.

Passenger 13509 5:04 PM

Today, My Mom, Dad, and I ventured down to the museum to tour the RMS Titanic exhibit. We roamed through other displays, including the butterfly wing before our scheduled tour. Upon arrival we were given a boarding pass with details of a passenger on board the Titanic for it's maiden Atlantic voyage. I received ticket 13509 Mr. Francis Davis Millet, East Bridgewater Massachusetts, First Class Cabin E-38. The display started with champagne bottles found at the wreckage site. We then boarded the ship and were able to view the accommodations, and the night of her final passage. Of all the artefacts on display, the one that struck me the most was a stewards jacket from one of the crew members. The display included a real iceberg that you could touch, fixtures from the ship, a section of the hull, and personal items recovered. There were accounts from passengers aboard, including plenty of pictures on display. As the tour ended, there was a log of surivors. "I" (Passenger 13509) was among those lost that night. It was a very well done presentation and I enjoyed the experience.

Insights 6:29 PM

You have come out with the Oceanic soul type. This would describe you as a person who is generally happy inside with an array of surfacing moods that tend to effect the people around you more than you would like. You are very busy dealing with things that seem like they would make no sense to the people in your life. You long for communion emotionally with someone but can't seem to find anyone who fits the bill. It is exceedingly important for an Oceanic soul to realize they are part of something by nature that is so vast, so incredible, so infinitely changing that they do not need to 'connect' the way they have learned to think that they do. All they really need to do is take notice of the beauty they are a real bonafide part of and participate fully. It is by exerting will in this small behavioral way that will bring them into a light that is very attractive to the right kind of people for them. Ironically, once an Oceanic realizes what they are a part of and starts to really willfully participate, they no longer feel such a need for connection.so get busy Oceanic soul! You have a lifetime of tides to ebb and flow through, and a whole world of beauty to be a part of.

A Little JTLC 7:09 PM

I took a detour today from my normal couch surfing, job hunting ways. The Jeep needed a little care, so I went and got the oil changed, tires rotated, air filter replaced, fluid levels checked. Now to get the spark plugs and distributor cap fitted and the Jeep will be running like a champ!

I Got It 7:28 PM

I'm done with moping around. Today brought the one thing I needed to let the past go, embrace the future. Oh yeah, there were actually jobs to apply for online too!

The Standard 6:03 PM

Another day of searching online for a suitable career. I have applied for so many positions now that I do not remember all of them. I'm going to start a log of every job I apply for from this point on. For the amount of jobs I applied for, I have received just a few rejection emails. They are all pretty standard, formal, impersonal, cold. Here is a copy:

Dear Matthew,

Thank you for submitting your resume to [comapny deleted] for consideration.

We are fortunate to have many qualified candidates apply to each of our
positions. We have reviewed the qualifications of each candidate and after
careful consideration, we have determined that the credentials of other
candidates may better fit our needs at this time.

Good luck on your search for employment.

The only nice thing is these companies actually acknowledge that you have expressed interest.

Leftovers 9:05 PM

I had the second helping of ham, turkey, green beans, stuffing, and sweet potatos from Easter dinner tonight. It was a great meal on Sunday, a great meal last night, and a great meal tonight as well. Sometimes leftovers are better than the actual meal itself. Today was no exception. When a meal is great to start with, tou can;t have bad leftovers. And do I love sweet potatos!

Shopping Spree 2:08 PM

Today I went shopping. Shopping for a job. Got dressed in nice pants, shirt, sweater, headed to a Job Fair and went through from table to table. Left my resume with some, chatted with some. Not really into the whole job fair scene, too much chaos and superficiality. The best part of the morning was wearing the shoes I bought a few weeks ago! I stayed for about an hour. Then I went to the grocery store and loaded up on food. Have a nice stocked freezer, refrigerator, and cupboards now. After I got home, I surfed job boards online, applied for a number of jobs posted. Now I've got yet another ANTM marathon showing on TV, a Java Monster open, and about to pick up my latest book.

Rewarding 4:52 PM

I answered a simple trivia question while chatting with friends on FaceBook last evening about who performed the song Pop Muzik (M). Unbeknownst to me, I won the coveted blogger award the Silver Squirrel for useless trivia! A number of people compete for this award on a reoccurring basis and I got it just by conversing! I am proud of this accomplishment!

Looking Pt II 6:40 PM

I am processing things as I go along and I realize this is all part of letting go, moving on. While it has been difficult, I find myself thinking about past events, places, people, all the interesting, wild, fun adventures as a way of looking to the possibilities and adventures that await me. Those things will always be a part of me, a part of who I am. Of course, part of me still wants what was, all the good things, but I know things aren't what they were and could never be at this point. It's hard to let go, but harder to remain where I'm at. So I look to the future. It's wide open...

Home Invasion 3:08 PM

The weather is absolutely wonderful. Sunny, warm, windy. I propped open the windows for the first time this year. Along with the warmer weather comes the swarm of Asian beetles that call the front windows home. There are 100s of them. I could spend the day vacuuming them up and there still would be 100s more clustered in the windows. It's almost like they're crawling out of the woodwork. I just can not get rid of them. Oh well, I suppose if I get out and enjoy the nice weather, why shouldn't they? Creeping, nasty little critters.

All Day All Day 7:10 PM

Definitely sick, up most of the night coughing and hacking. Slept in hourly spurts until I got off the couch about 8:00am. Had breakfast, showered, and did some running this morning, supplies to print and send resumes. Returned home and have been on the couch since, napping. Have a humidifier running, drinking warm tea, water, trying to stave off this nasty cold.

Step Aside 6:13 PM

I went to Culver's with Christine for lunch today. She got in line on the left, and I stood to the right. As I got to the counter and started to order I lost my train of thought. I proceeded to tell the cashier that I didn't know what I wanted. He told me to step aside since there were other customers in line waiting to order. Christine just finished ordering and her line was empty so I stepped over to that register and placed my order, just like I had intended in the first line. I chuckled. I've never been asked to step aside before! I found the whole thing too funny to get angry, especially since I was able to order right away. The flavor of the day must have distracted me.

At Work 6:44 PM

It was a busy day for me after having a couple of days off. It took me a while to get back into the swing of things, but then it was all business. I like the fact that it's busy at work, keeps me occupied and my mind doesn't wander and I keep focused on the project I'm working on. Don't get me wrong, I'd much rather be at play, but I know I got to work in order to play.