Last evening turned out to be my worst moment since this process began. I had a complete mental and emotional breakdown. Luckily my brother Tim called in the middle of my hysteria. He patiently listened through my ramblings. I have had a muscle spasm in my left bicep since Tuesday night. It is continuous. I have tried heat, massage, tub soaking, pain relievers. Nothing helps. The spasms keep me awake, and the moments I do fall asleep, a spasm jolts me awake. I have called the clinic to see what I can do. Today I am calm, actually feel pretty good, still have the spasms. It can be so maddening, frustrating, annoying sometime.